Sweet daddy meets mlg dinosaur- phan

Wake me up when september ends

Phils POV
The innocence can never last

Last night was hell, my mum and dad had found out I hadn't gone to any of my lessons that day. They screamed words down at me, asking me for answers. Like it was written on my skin, I couldn't tell them why.

My mum got the maddest, maybe because she wanted me to succeed and be a footballer and get lots of money, but obviously, that wasn't going to happen not now, not after she saw me with a boy, it meant nothing!

I went up to my bedroom after dinner and later on my bed lifeless, I felt like I'd lost my only hope of getting out of the mess I was in. I'd pushed him away to protect him and me from more damage, was I just being selfish.

I picked up my phone and scrolled through Instagram, pictures of people smiling with their friends. It made me remember what I'd lost, I'd come to a point where I didn't have friends did I? I clicked on Dan's profile cute little pictures of him with flowers and animals, such a sweet boy. You wouldn't believe he's the same boy I love. It hurt to know that my chances with him were bleak, as well my mum she wouldn't agree and well dan probably hates me now anyway.

I clicked on message, I was going to apologise to Dan, for saying what I said. As now looking back on it, I wanted him to stay with me. I wanted him to talk to me, but he left, maybe because I'd told him too and he felt intimidated.

Hi, dan I'm sorry for what I said. I didn't mean it it was harsh I know I just didn't know what to do. I'd explain but it's hard. Well, I'm sorry okay. You don't deserve to be shouted at like that.
Seen

Pain and anger flooded my body. He'd just left me on seen.
Was
I
Really
That
Bad?
It's not something you could reply too but even a k or thanks would have been nice. I felt a little stupid now, to say the least. You know when you get embarrassed because you've done something and you've been outed by someone. Ye, it kinda felt like that.

Maybe I'll just wake up tomorrow a fresh start. Although sleeping proved harder than I thought.

The next day

I wake up usual process dress, teeth, breakfast. My clothes were a little screwed up from last night as I'd just thrown them on the chair. Maybe I'll be more careful next time. The walk to school wasn't terrible. It was cold though it was getting late September and the winds were picking up and the sun wasn't shining as it used too. I wish these bruises would leave my arms. They were kinda ugly, to say the least.

The doors fly open as a surge of children flood into the school. People with scarves on to keep warm in the bitter temperatures. I'd noticed a few people looking at a certain pair of people. Sarah gave me a dirty look as she stormed past me, which morphed into a revengeful smirk. I decided I'd walk further towards the people. See what was happening.

I wish I hadn't

If I could unsee that memory I would, I would erase it far far away and never let it see light again. Because of Dan with his sweet lips of PJs bitter cold ones. Made my stomach turn. And my throat tighten.

My heart felt like it had been ripped into so many pieces when dan slammed his face harder into PJs then he saw me, it was not beautiful in any way. It was forced and rushed, and rough in all the wrong ways. Dan's face didn't mound to PJs like I imagined it would to mine. No matter how perfect they thought it was , I didn't . Trust me they got a few stares

I'd realised I couldn't miss any more lessons due to a teenage crush. That literally crushed my heart. Maybe that's why they call it that. Because When you get turned down it's the worse feeling in the world. All your self-esteem goes and your confidence levels drop below negative 100. It's a harsh reality.

Dan's face was cold yet warm he was flustered from all the kissing and lack of oxygen, yet cold and pale. His pale skin lacking any feeling, why did he do it. He would probably say PJ did it to him, knowing dan If anyone asked. Like I said anyone would push that kind of stuff onto someone else, and that's just how dan was.

I admired him for being strong, but not for when he lied and faked himself out of things. It wasn't fair on people. I still stand emotionless with a blank expression across my face staring down the corridor. At the place, they once stood. I start to walk forward and I pass Dan. I look him straight into the eyes, brown glittering everywhere.

I know why you did it, and it's okay

Just wake me up when September ends

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Oof it's gonna get better ~ peppa