Sweet daddy meets mlg dinosaur- phan

Don't go

Two days.

It's been two days since,
I have seen Phil,
Love flowed through my fingertips as our hands touched,
Him and I were together, treasuring every second in each other's company.

Two days since I've been happy.

After I left his house, my heart shattered and still on his doorstep, I walked forward until I found somewhere to clear my mind.

And I kept walking.

Finally, I found a peaceful park beside a lake. I sit down, still unsure about how I feel.

Numb.
Numb is how I feel.

I get that Phil needed to be careful around his Mum, but couldn't we have just had a proper goodbye around the corner?

I know I sound naive, but I really felt like that day meant something. I've never had someone to help pick me up after being beaten before.

I've gotten used to just scraping myself back together.

Yet he never responded when I tried to message him.
He didn't answer any of my calls.

I miss him so much.

School is tomorrow and I'm so scared to see him. Will I even see him?

*the next day*

Same old routine.
I get up.
Want to ignore the voices, but don't.
Help myself to an apple, but put it back.

Then I walk to school, my Mum nowhere to be seen, and head inside.
I walk to where Phil's locker is and plan to wait there, but he was already there taking his books out.

He looked to different though.

He wasn't wearing his usual clothes, but dark and almost as if he wanted to be unnoticeable.

I blurt out " Phil! Hi, I've missed you so much. What did your Mum say-

Before I could finish he sends me a piercing look straight in the eye and walks straight past me.

I felt every crack.

Don't go

I can't do this on my own.