hallucinations | Jaemin

- reality -

Yu Boreum

We finished eating and the others said they needed to go somewhere.

"You two stay here, me and the others needed to go somewhere"

Taeyong told me and Jaemin. Jaemin nodded his head and I asked.

"Where?"

"Somewhere.."

Taeyong avoided the question, but I shrugged my shoulders. Probably somewhere I am not involved with.

"See you two later"

WinWin waved and Doyoung added.

"Jaemin, you can introduce Boreum to Yangyang, Hendery and Xiaojun when they wake up"

Jaemin nodded and they waved goodbye. They closed the door and it was me and Jaemin.

"Can I ask you something?"

"Sure"

"What do you mean by "bestfriends" earlier?"

I was thrown off-guard and I gulped.

"Bestfriends, the people you laugh and cry together with. The people who you trust the most. The people who makes you happy and feel euphoric. The people who cares the most. And.. the people who you miss the most when they dissappear"

I was trying my best not to cry. Before I could wipe my tears, Jaemin pulled me in a tight hug.

"I feel the same, but replace with bestfriends with family. I felt lonely without them. I started to rebel and dislike other children with parents. I became aggressive with no parents or someone to repremand me. In short, I wasn't feeling... myself"

He paused and I patted his back.

"I used to smile everytime. I am that person whose always happy and never fails to smile. People really liked my smile and that made me smile even more. But.. something happened to my parents"

"It's fine if you don't want to tell it"

I released him from the hug and looked at him.

"No, it's fine. I want to share my experience with you, since we can relate to eachother"

He gave me a small smile, not showing any teeth.

"I.. watched both of my parents.. die. An accident happened to them, resulting death. I was young, at my grandparent's house. My parents left me there, so someone can keep an eye on me. I was 7 and the next day after that accident. My grandparents told me my parents are... dead. I lost control and cried everytime. It was traumatizing for me, since I was so young"

"Is it ok if I ask how did they.. die?"

"Car accident. My dad drove at night and some car didn't looked where he was going and seemed drunk. They crashed into my parent's car. The car hitted my parents at the front. The machine exploded and both my parents and the driver died"

"I am sorry, I should've asked"

"No it's fine, can we just stay like this for a while?"