As Long As I Have You.

As Long As I Have You. CH.5

CH.5

In woke up and noticed a note from mom laying on my hip, as I still lay on River. The note read, Jaklynn, school was canceled today because of the storm last night, I guess a tree fell over or something, anyways, I will be home at eight tonight. I also want to tell you how much I love you. I will see you later, Mom. I set it in the trash bin next to the bed.

Sitting up I saw a letter... it was from dad... Part of me wants to just burn it, but the other wants to read it. I went with reading it... Dear, Jaklynn, I haven't seen you since you were five, that was ten almost eleven years ago. wow. I know I must have caused you and your mother a lot of mental pain, and put you in poverty. It was wrong of me to leave the way I did. I sent some money, I hope it helps. I left because I wasn't happy with your mother... I loved you a lot, but at the time I was only thinking of myself... I'm sorry Jaklynn. I thought you should know that I'm doing great, I'm remarried and have three kids with this woman. I'm happy, and I hope your mother can find happiness as well. I don't think we should be a part of each other's lives, but you needed this. Goodbye.

I was sobbing uncontrollably. I didn't want to wake River up, but I couldn't help it. I am feeling so much pain, anger, and sadness.

"Jaklynn, what's wrong!" River said as he scooped me up in his arms to hold me. I just handed him the letter and buried my head in his chest.

"Babe I'm so sorry." he told me and kissed my head, holding tighter.

I sat up wrapping my legs around his waist, and my arms around his neck, and lay my head in the hollow of his shoulder and neck. We just sat there in that position until I was done crying.

"Thank you River." I said when I sat up to face him.

"For what?"  He replied.

"Being here for me." I smiled.

He smiled back. "You would do the same for me. I'm here for you always"

"and I'm always here for you."

He ran his fingers through my messy hair, and giggled.

"You're so beautiful, even with messy hair, and morning breath. I bet you're even cute when you have gas." He said and laughed hysterically, obviously finding himself very funny.

I couldn't help but thinking the same, as I laughed with him.

"You are the same." I told him and remembered the song All Of Me, by John Legend.

At the same time we burst out singing the chorus. I love your curves and all your edges, all your perfect imperfections, cuz you give me all of you, and I give you all of me.

Leaning my head back as we both laughed, I fell backwards onto the bed. With my body still wrapped around his, he fell on top of me. We were in a somewhat awkward position with my legs open, and my hands now on his shoulders, while he was on his hands and knees. Knees between mine and hands above my shoulders.

I bit my bottom lip as we gazed into each other's eyes. He grinned ever so slightly as he began leaning in. Closing my eyes as he came only inches away. It felt as though fireworks were let of inside my stomach as his lips met mine.

I kept my eyes shut but smiled when he pulled away slowly. When I opened my eyes the met his loving gaze and he was smiling as well.

We stood up and made our way down stairs. Then we started a fire, throwing in the letter from dad in. We ate a bowl of cereal, and I did the dishes as he got ready in the bathroom.

When I was done with that he was sitting on the couch. I went and got ready as well, although we both stayed in our sweats. Mom had told him to keep them last night, and had washed his clothes.

"Jak." River said when I sat down and cuddled up beside him.

"Yes?" I asked in reply.

"I am going to have to leave to get home at the time I would after school." 

I knew he was going to have to leave eventually, even though I wished he didn't. I don't want him to get hurt anymore, but there is nothing I can really do...

I answered "I know, I wish you didn't."

"Me too, but I do." he said half smiling at me.

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The day went by  with us talking, playing silly hand games, and cuddling. It was a nice day. I was upset when he had to leave, so I walked with him halfway. We kissed and hugged goodbye, the second just as wonderful as the first.

On my way home I gathered firewood along the way. When I got there I put more wood on the fire, and went to the kitchen to make dinner. I looked around deciding to make baked potatoes, boiled baby carrots with butter, and grilled chicken. Glad I took home-ec in school.

When mom got home I had everything done, and our meals set on the table. For a drink I settled with milk. She set down her stuff and walked into the kitchen smelling the scent of the food in the air. Opening her arms for a hug and smiling, she thanked me.

We sat down to eat. "How was work mommy?" I asked.

Blushing a little grin took place on her face. "It was great honey, thanks for asking." 

Thinking her reply odd I asked suspiciously."What made it so great?"

"Well, um, this guy I served is what did the trick." She told me.

"Ooo, and who was this guy?"

"His name is Paul Winchester, he was very polite and kind, and we talked a bit, and he asked for my number." She said blushing again.

"Did you give it to him?"

"Yes, I called him on my way home, and we are going out Saturday night"

"That's great mom."I told her and gathered up the dishes and started washing them.

Mom showered and we sat down on the couch together, just snuggling. Time passed and we went to bed. Again I fell asleep thinking of River and not shedding one tear.

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Ok well I hope you like the first five chapters! I know I write differently then most people, but it's how I do it so don't complain! I also realise that things happened fast, but they happened fast for a reason. I have plans, and I hope you all enjoy what I write! I appreciate positive feedback in comments and votes! Like really, feel free to drop comments as long as they are not rude, I'm open to compliments and kind suggestions. What do you think of Jiver? If you ship it add #Jiver<3 in the comments! Thank you to all my devoted readers and followers, I luvers all you prettyful butterflies! ~Briana