Lost in the dark, about her reaction
Time ticked on but it never felt right
Heartracing, fearful about what words would slip out of her mouth.
The air would turn heavy
But to the others it was fine and sweet
As only a few of them knew, but weren't pleased with it.
It isn't a choice, but would she have understood that?
And now it eats away at me, the only things left are a few crumbs of my brain and heart.
Screaming and shouting that would turn us deaf
Or a warm hug and gentle smile melting away the fear
Would her love still show?
Or would I ve more alone than I am now?
My lips, tongue and teeth would stop.
My hands shook as I went to hug her,
My shoulders would shrug as thst was the easiest answer.
Time. Time! TIME WENT TOO FAST!
My hands shake as if they are cold
My heart stops as I imagine every possibility.
But Now.
Now I'll never know,
She would never know the truth about me.
I was the favorite a title I held with pride,
She had asked too often about my non existent boyfriends
And it was painful.
