"hey, mom."
"hi, honey. i'm just getting dinner star- ryan, are you okay? you look like you've been crying!"
"i'm fine. shane and i were just talking."
"did he break up with you? if he did, i'll kick his sorry ass myself."
"no, no, no, mom, it's not like that... it's just. we both realized that my- our- days are numbered."
"oh, honey..."
"mom, you know it's true. jake knows it's true. shane and i both know. dad knew and that's why he left!"
"ryan steven bergara, don't you dare bring your father into this."
"what? it's true! he couldn't handle losing a son so young!"
"ryan..."
"i'm not gonna live to see what being eighteen is like. i'll never see paris with shane, i'll never get to have a big, fancy wedding and have kids and grow old and die like that.
"shane and i won't get a happily ever after. you know why?"
"ryan, honey-"
"because i'm dying, mom."
i look at her, crying. she avoids my eyes and rubs her eyes, drying tears.
"i'm a dead man walking."
YOU ARE READING
the forever within the never ; shyan
Fanfiction❝this... we can't last. our days were numbered from the beginning.❞ {cw: cancer, death, mentions of suicide} [completed]
