their love

Wanting a baby

    it's been a year since the jail problem and I had come to a decision, I wanted a baby. I not only wanted a baby but I wanted it now, I know that sounds bad but it's how I felt. Michael never wanted kids, he always said we would adopt a 5 or 6 year old but I wanted to get pregnant and experience it myself. after Dawn we didn't want anything to do with kids anymore, we just wanted to be with one another alone.
      I decided to sit Michael down and talk to him about this, about me wanting to have a baby. after hours of talking... he said no. he didn't want kids he wanted me and that was it, he didn't want to have to share me with a baby, he said he was perfectly happy how things were now.
     I waited a few months before bringing it up again, but it just started an argument and him saying no again. so I ended up depressed all I wanted was a baby and he was keeping that from me.. I loved him but if he wasn't going to give me a baby i didn't know if i wanted this anymore.
   we fought and fought for hours on end about this and it just never seemed to stop, he wanted me but i wanted a baby. he finally just screamed "fine!! leave!" and i did, I left without looking back .. that was the last time I heard from him. I wonder sometimes what he's doing now.  I have 3 kids and a wonderful husband but he will never be what Michael was to me. I still love michael deep down inside.

   but alas I had to say goodbye for the last time.