Do I regret falling in love with you? Thats the question I ask myself daily. I can't decide if I regret it or not. Part of me loved falling in love with you because you were my world and my life. Yet another part of me hates that I fel in love with you because after this long of being apart I can't move on. I mean its like I truly loved you and would have given my life for you in an instant but now look at us. That 1 night stand you had with a guy a fucking hate while we were taking a few days apart to work out a few problems. Yeah do you remember what I said when I found out? I told you that it was a big mistake being with him because he would fuck your life up. Well guess what after four break ups with him and me still stupidly supporting your choices (even) if I hate them you finally move on. Did you come back to me the guy whose loved you for this long? No you went for a girl who has had more relationships in 6 months then iI had homework in my senior year of high school. Then you say you wanna see me once before I leave for the navy. Yea I agreed to see you but wanna know what I'll take away from seeing you? Here's a hint I'll get to watch you walk away yet again. Yet here I am still talking to you in all my free time making the same effort I've tried making since we first for together showing you how much I love you and what do I have to show for it? Nothing I don't get half the effort I give and I don't get the time of day I give or deserve but here I am giving my all for no reason.
