"Why do you still fight for me after I left you for your worse enemy?" she questioned annoyed yet intrigued. "Maybe its because you were my first true love... maybe its because I dream of you... maybe its because you were my everything before I fucked up... maybe its because I can taste your lips every time I drink something sweet.... maybe its a lot of rsns... or maybe its stupidity. Maybe its because you were the happiness to my sadness the light to my dark the good to my evil the day to my night the good to my bad." He answers sadly knowing that there is not much longer. "Do you know which reason is true though?" She inquires. "All of them are true but its to late now i fucked us up and now I leave soon." She knew he was moving away but she had no idea he was being shipped to a submarine for the next eight years. He told only one person he was leaving for the navy and that person was sworn to secrecy and sworn to protect her no matter the cost until he returned home. He couldn't trust anyone else to do this for him while he tried to fix himself. She questioned him every day but never once asked where he was going. Yet he knew he was broken and hoped he was going to get a little fixed while he was away. Although sad he was leaving everything behind he secretly hoped she would wait for him, but he knew that dream was lost the day she left in general. I know she wonders why I still care for her after all she thinks it's all her fault. She did move on fast and yes she did give him more chances than she gave me
I just don't think she believes that I still love her. Its only grown through all the pain I've just loved her more and more. Maybe I'll make her proud when I'm away for awhile. Maybe when I come back after a few years she will eventually love me once again. But my destiny is yet to be decided. They say you make your own destiny but I can't make her love me again. All I can do is try making her proud of me.
