keeping hope.

chapter 5: second chance?

chandler had continued talking to me, but it still

wasn't the same as it had been before. I still had so

many feelings for him. I think he had feelings for me

but I wasn't sure. I felt like a piece of worthless

trash. I missed him so much. I finally came out and

told him the truth and how I felt.

we started dating again and I was so happy. he said

he was crazy for losing me. I loved him and he loved

me. it was perfect. again.

he talked about getting married and having kids and

how many he wanted, and what their names would

be. I knew at that point I loved him so so much.

my brother and his girlfriend were planning a trip to

florida. they wanted to know if chandler might want

to come too! I was so excited. we checked with his

parents and he could come!

we got to Florida and it was amazing. I loved him

and his sweet smile. I thought we were going to be

forever together. Florida was amazing, it was the

most fun I had in a long time. chandler loved it too.

we had our pictures made the last day and they

were gorgeous. I loved them.

when we got back to Georgia we were so glad to be

back home. we missed our small town. he missed

skating. the next few days he came over to my

house because we couldn't stand not seeing each

other for a long time. we went skating that Friday

night, we haven't been in like 4 weeks. that night

changed my life again. I realized that I was on my

own... again.