❛ mask ❜
— theme: identity ; knowledge ; other
— published: september 16, 2018
i'm reaching out to
grasp your hand but i
know your touch is forbidden
no, i cannot risk
corrupting you with this
monstrosity within me
it pains me, the way
you tell me to stay and
smile like everything's okay
because yesterday gave
me reason to believe these
lips are meant not for happy grins
oh, i don't understand
when will i ever be able to
take off this deceivingly
preposterous mask
that i put on just so i
can deal you no harm
because i love you
when will i ever be able to
figure out just who i am
and which of my identities
is supposed to be true so i
need not fall prey to sin
oh, but i love you
time and time again, it gets lonely
but i don't want to hurt you
so i choose to remain solitary
if only you knew the answer
to who i truly am inside
would you tell me
or would you turn a blind eye?
it must feel nice
to be holding your hand
and yet i'm still aware
of how unworthy i am that
i've sunk so low and see
no other light than the one
reflected by my tears
oh, i don't understand
when will i ever be able to
take off this deceivingly
preposterous mask
that i put on just so i
can deal you no harm
because i love you
when will i ever be able to
figure out just who i am
and which of my identities
is supposed to be true so i
need not fall prey to sin
but yes, i love you
though i long for that warmth
i don't deserve that warmth
but still i adore it
just remember me
that is all i plead before
this identity fades from existence
when will i ever be able to
show you the person behind
this mask if i don't even know
what they're supposed to do
other than just silently
quietly loving you
YOU ARE READING
to whom it may concern;
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