The Alphas Sister (Complete)

Chapter Eighteen

I grabbed her by her shoulders and held her away from me, stopping her attempt at kissing me. I watch her face as it turns from concern to sadness "I can't Electra" I shake my head and turn my back on her, taking a few steps away "we can't" I mentally slap myself when I hear a whimper from her lips.

It took all that was in me not to put my lips on hers, but it's her birthday in only a few days and if she finds her mate after I give in to her it's going to break me all over again.

I couldn't go through it again, my feelings for her had grown over the last few months and they scared me. I had only felt this way once and it ended up with me broken.

I was brought out of my thoughts when Electra stood in front of me "why can't we? I don't understand?" She looked absolutely heartbroken and I almost caved.

"Because we're not meant to be together, you're going to find your mate in a few days..." she cut me off by placing a hand on my cheek. On instinct I leant into it and closed my eyes.

"Can't you feel it?" She asks and I open my eyes to see her directly staring into my eyes as I stare into hers "there's something there, I know you can feel it too" she half smiles.

My gaze never leaves hers as I reach up and remove her hand from my cheek. I wouldn't tell her but I did feel something, even if it was barely there and it scared me more than anything.

"I can't, Electra" I say sadly, feeling my heart constrict.

Her eyes go to her feet "I'll ah... see you around, Kyan" she says as she power walks to the door and leaves. I heard her quiet sobs as she closed the door.

I felt like an absolute jerk, I run my hands through my hair and cursed. If it was anyone else, someone without consequence I may have just taken them then and there.

I laid on my back on my bed and looked up at the ceiling deep in thought.

Electra... she was different, I couldn't just treat her like one of the many girls, they all knew my rules and I made sure they kept them.

But Electra made me feel things I hadn't felt in a long time, a sense of connection and hope. I couldn't make her follow the rules, make sure we didn't get feelings, that we didn't sleep next to each other or go out on dates.

I knew if we started I wouldn't want to stop, I'd want her in my bed every night... under me every night...

Ugh... I need to stop thinking about her.

I get myself up off my bed and take a cold shower.

I had to go out for a run, I leave my room and resist the temptation to go to Electra's room. I look over at it and sigh.

I go to my usual change spot and strip my clothes.

I change into my wolf form quickly and run. The breeze running through my fur, the dirt on my feet, the smell of the forest and the sounds of the animals is what I used to get my mind off Electra.

I must have been out for hours when I felt my stomach rumble, I didn't feel like hunting down a rabbit so I made my way back and made my way into the dining hall.

I grabbed some steak, medium-rare and sat down next to Matt.

I see him eye me up and down from the corner of my eye "you alright?" He asks, concern evident on his face.

"I'm fine" I say quickly.

Cade sits down across from me "hey, Kyan, Matt" he says as he nods at both of us.

"Alpha" we say in unison.

He rubs the back of his head "have you seen Electra? She won't answer her phone".