Photo Shoot ; VKOOK

Thirty one

"N-not today, Joonie," Seokjin said between pants. "I'm sorry."

He left their bedroom to walk into his own room. He lay down on the daybed, liking the familiar feeling and scent of the fabric.

This was his room, and only his. Taehyung had never been allowed to go into it, not even look. Namjoon wasn't allowed to either, but he did it anyways.

While Seokjin lay tummy down on the daybed, looking out of the panorama windows that displayed a view of the city below the apartment, he thought about Taehyung.

Seokjin felt like he was Taehyung's mother. That's how he'd always felt. From the first day they met, until now. And he hated seeing Taehyung cry, his baby.

He didn't even know why he never told Taehyung anything about Namjoon and his relationship, but he deeply regretted not doing it.

Taehyung deserved to have known about it. He really did. All three of them had lived in the same apartment. And still they hadn't told Taehyung.

Seokjin felt like a terrible mom. He didn't know how Taehyung's real mother was able to live with herself after abandoning Taehyung, when he was barely able to live with himself after having kept a secret from Taehyung.

At the moment, Seokjin wanted nothing more, than to apologize to Taehyung. To hug him, and comfort him like he used to do. But he knew he couldn't. Deep down he knew that Jungkook was right. He should leave Taehyung alone for a bit. Let Taehyung take the next step.

If Jungkook's explanation hadn't been enough, Taehyung blocking his phone number was definitely enough proof that Taehyung wanted to be left alone.

Nevertheless Seokjin pulled out his phone, going straight into Instagram to text Taehyung.

@TaeTae

Please, Tae.

Let me explain.

Leave me alone Seokjin!

Tae, please!

I can explain.

Leave me alone!

Tae, please! I made a mistake.

You have been blocked by this person
Messages will not be sent

Seokjin threw his phone on the ground, sobbing into a pillow. The pillow smelled like Taehyung, it had been in his old room, but Seokjin had moved it into his own after Taehyung moved, along with the rest of the things in Taehyung's room.

It was a daily reminder of Taehyung. Of all the ups and downs they'd had together. All the memories they shared.

But right now it was only a reminder of Seokjin's own stupidity. Of how he failed Taehyung.

As he continued crying into the pillow that smelled like Taehyung, he felt a hand on his back, and a soft 'Baby?' was spoken.

"Go away, Joonie," Seokjin said, his voice muffled by the pillow.

"You might want to see this," Namjoon said, putting his phone down next to Seokjin before leaving the room again.

Seokjin picked up the phone. Curious about what Namjoon wanted him to see.

When he unlocked the phone he was met with Namjoon's latest Instagram post. He began scrolling through the comments, reading a few of them, but going past a lot.

Many fans of Taehyung were very excited to see the pictures, which Seokjin totally understood, as he himself was very excited too.

Seokjin stopped scrolling when he spotted a comment talking about something called 'Namjin'. He didn't know who namjin was, and so he just continues scrolling.

As he scrolled he saw more and more comments about the namjin person. He started wondering who it was.

"Joonie?" He called out, not moving from his position in the daybed.

"What is it, Baby?" Namjoon asked from somewhere in the house.

"You're not in the kitchen, are you?"

"Off course not. Was that all?"

"Do you know who Namjin is?" Seokjin said. "A lot of the comments is about the so called Namjin. Do you know who it is?"

Namjoon appeared in the doorway of Seokjin's room. "It's not a person, Baby," he said. "It's two."

"No. It isn't. It's one person: Namjin."

"You got it wrong, Baby. It is two people. It's you and me. Namjoon and Seokjin. Nam and Jin makes Namjin. Somebody leaked our relationship."

Seokjin's body went stiff. "Who?"

"I don't know. The only persons who know is Jungkook and Tae."

"But they wouldn't leak it."

"Maybe some paparazzi," Namjoon said. "You know how they figure everything out."

Seokjin nodded. "At least Tae didn't discover it through social media."

"Right," Namjoon said. "I'm sorry if I went too far earlier. I didn't mean to. I hope you know that."

Seokjin walked over to Namjoon so he was standing right in front of him.

"I know." Seokjin kissed Namjoon. "I'm sorry for pushing you away."

✦✧✦✧

"How was the photo shoot?" Hoseok asked. Knowing how much Taehyung had been looking forward to it.

"It was good."

"Good?"

Taehyung wore an unreadable expression on his face. Showing neither happiness nor sadness. He was really excited to tell Hoseok about everything that had happened today. But he thought he would start out with a little prank.

Sadly, he couldn't keep up with his own prank, and liftet his cover. "It was amazing, Hyung. I loved it. I have so much to tell you."

Hoseok smiled when he saw how happy Taehyung was. It was almost like the happiness radiated off of Taehyung and into Hoseok making him happy, too.

"Tell me about everything," Hoseok said.

Taehyung obeyed and told Hoseok about the whole photoshoot; about Jungkook being the winner, and how tired he had gotten; about the quality of the photos and the concepts, both things that Taehyung liked.

Taehyung was heading to the end of his explanation. Towards the part where Jungkook had cried, how Namjoon and comforted him. When he came to the part with Namjoon and Seokjin's relationship, he cried a little, but stopped as soon as he got to the next part. The one where Jungkook became his boyfriend.

"So," Taehyung said, "Jungkook was lying in my bed, comforting me the same way that I usually comfort him. And then I... I told him..." Taehyung trailed off, not knowing how to explain what had happened.

"What did you tell him?"

"I told him that I loved him," Taehyung said.

"You what? I thought you were straight."

"I thought so, too. Alright? You are the one who always said that thing with the ruler breaking! And I guess it's true. Some rulers break. Maybe everyone's rulers break if they meet the right person."

"I guess," Hoseok said. "What happened after you said that?"

"He said 'I love you, too'. And then he asked to be my boyfriend."

"What did you answer?"

"Yes."