Kitty's Secrets

Chapter 2

A/N:  Here is another chapter and I hope you enjoy it.  

Kit's reason for not returning is revealed.  I hope you guys don't mind too much.  

Kit POV

"Hey, I knew that I would find you down here. Most of the staff go to either the rooftop garden or the park just outside the hospital, but you always come to the daycare. I guess watching children has a way of calming you down." Dr. Smith pats me on my shoulder.

Without looking away from the kids, I mumble, "Something like that."

Dr. Smith nudges me. "Come on, our department has a meeting in five meetings. You have to go back upstairs."

Reluctantly I tear my eyes off the kids and without saying anything, I turn and walk back up to my department.

It is days like this that has me practically running to the daycare. There is that one face that manages to calm me down without having to do anything. The only difference from what I remember is that the precious boy has dimples, too.

When I get back upstairs, I can't even face the grief-stricken parents. They are still sitting in the waiting area and they are still crying. I can't image receiving the news that your child is sick and may even die. I think I would just crumble if I ever had to deal with something like that. It doesn't help that I'm a doctor and I have had to give that terrible news before. If my son were ill, I would definitely crumble to pieces.

As I enter the meeting room, several of the doctors look at me with sympathy. They all know that I get personally attached to my patients and I don't handle telling the parents bad news very well. I know that I need to work on it, but I can't seem to ever get better no matter how many times that I have to have that conversation. Shane flashes me a sympathetic look and motions for me.

I quickly shuffle over to him and sit down next to him. Before Shane says anything, I simply state, "I'm fine. Don't worry about me."

Shane sighs and softly replies, "You should have let me tell the parents the bad news. You know that you can ask me to do that for you whenever you need, right."

"I know but it isn't fair to the parents to hand them off to another doctor just because I'm hurting, too. Plus, what would the parents think of me if I had to have someone come in and discuss the findings. They may think that I don't know what I'm doing, and I can't have the parents thinking that. I want them to have confidence in me." I turn my head and stare out the window.

How I wish that I could go back home and see my friends. I haven't seen Pha and Beam in five years. I have occasionally talked to them on my phone whenever I turn it on, but I haven't gone home, and I have never given them my address to them, so they don't know where I live. However, knowing Pha, he would find a way to find me if he needed to. I'm sure if Pha asked Yo, he and his dad would be more than willing to try and track me down. Well, I haven't made it easy. It wasn't entirely my fault for moving so much, but I couldn't help it. I just moved last weekend again, but I don't think that I will be moving again or at least not anytime soon. This time I moved in with my friend, Shane. He has a big house with a several extra rooms and I was once again forced to moved, so he insisted on moving me into his house. Plus, he knows my most important secret and I don't have to hide it from him which really helps and was the deciding factor in agreeing to take him up on his offer.

After moving in with him, he also found out another secret. He found out that I'm still madly in love with Ming. I was late for work one morning and he came into my room to wake me up and he was instantly surprised by the number of pictures of Ming that I have in my room. If you didn't know better, you would think that I'm Ming's stalker, but Ming is still in Thailand while I'm in the United States. It also made since when he saw Ming's picture.