●SUICIDAL LOVE●

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I look at my parents with so much surprise in my eyes, I can't believe they are taking me to summer camp ugh...i hate this I look back at my parents and squeeze the can a little.

"Is anything wrong darling""my mum asks so concerned

"huh?no...nothing at all"I snap back to reality but it is a good idea to go for summer camp away from the drama especially Camille and max

"so you wanna go for it"my dad says,

"sure,sure"I nod with a slight smile on my face my parents smile too I guess they don't want me home "well you're going tomorrow"she adds my eyes widen, whatttttt!!!!??I scream in the inside "why tomorrow what kind of camp is this"I asked raising a brow and placing my hands on my hips "oh it's the summer camp I and your dad went to when we were teenagers that's how we first met"she sighs dreamly "but I thought you guys met in a bar when mum was drunk and she was pole dancing like a cowboy"I say they both laugh nervously "how did you know that"mum asks "when we were coming back from the mall and you guys were arguing with some couple that just took the last can of chicken soup...i was sick that day"I explain "that's enough"My dad says "why don't you go to your room and arrange your stuffs for tomorrow because we are going early in the morning"he adds "yeah whatever"I say I walk upstairs back to my room and get my box I take out some clothes in my closet and throw them on my bed I look at them and I know what was about to happen....packing up and true weakness and enemies I was now lazy to pack up my bags and stuffs I grab my phone and text Randy.
Me:hey Randy

Randy:yo sup

Me:about to pack up my stuff :/

Randy:Why....

I pause on whether to tell him now but whatever

Me:I'll tell you later....are you free this night?

Randy:Yeah...going to the bar today..

Me:ok...before we go to the bar we have to go to the pharmacy I need to go and get drugs. I'll be coming to your house to get you.

Randy:ok..ill see ya later I guess

I tossed my phone on my bed I remove my shirt and I was only in my jeans I flop on my bed ready to take a power nap eventually I slept off.
-17 minutes later-
I wake up and look at my alarm clock it was 8:50pm I yawn I stretch to get my phone as I switch it on the bright light almost blinds me i squint my eyes looking at my phone I have 4 missed calls from Randy shit I stuff my face into my pillow muffling I finally stood up and walked to the bathroom I wash my face to feel fresh I look at myself in the mirror, my pale body but not so place,black messy straight hair,deep blue eyes,natural rose lips that are kinda full and I'm average height and kinda slim, I pack braid my hair and rap it into a bun I get my lip balm and put it on it smells like chocolate I put on a baggy white sweater and a jean shorts with black sandals u get my phone and some money then I walk downstairs to the sitting room my parents were watching a marathon "mum,dad I'm going out with Randy for a walk"I said about to reach the Door knob"make sure you come back before bedtime"my dad says "yeah sure"I walk out of the house closing the door behind me the cool air kisses my face as I walk down the street I could hear it was so quiet and peaceful normally people would be walking around by this time leaning on the wall checking out girls I finally arrive Randy's house it was huge with a garden and a pool and shit like that I walk up to the door and ring the doorbell the door swings open, a boy about 13 with red curly hair and emerald green eyes shows up at the front of me he looked like the little version of Randy "hey Danny where's your big bro"I ask "his out with his friends"He replies in a mean way "what's wrong"I look at him "he is suppose to hangout with me but nooo he has to hangout with his friends"he frowns "well he won't be with you forever...it's called growing up kid and having fun..what about your friends" "they are playing roblox"He rolls his eyes"then play with them"I suggested "I'm 13"he says I sigh this kid is annoying "Danny who is that"I heard Randy voice from the kitchen "uh nobody-"I cut him off "It's me mia" "oh Mia.. "I hear footsteps getting louder and Randy us now behind danny"Danny go to your room, now,your friends gavee been screaming your name"he says Danny rolls his eyes and walks away Randy walks out as he close the door behind him looking at him"don't mind Danny his been acting like a poop lately"he says "kids this days...now let's go to the pharmacy"I say as we walk down the street "Why so quick"he asks"my parents want me to go back by ten"I sigh "that's a bummer" "I know cuz I got summer camp"I say he looks at me "WHAT?!"he half screams "you are leaving me...but that sucks anyways"he mutters "I know"I sigh as we reach the pharmacy "can you wait outside while I get the drugs"I ask "sure I'll be waiting"he replies standing by the door I walk into the pharmacy to the counter the pharmacist was looking at the tv watching a football match as if he didn't hear me step in"excuse me.."I say in a low tone he doesn't answer "Hey beard face I'm talking to you!"I shot rudely he finally notices me and groans he walks to me"What do you want"he asks "I need antidepressant pills"I reply he doesn't answer as he continues to watch the match I snap my fingers at the front of his face he looks at me"What?"he asks again "I said I need antidepressants"I try to calm myself he nods and walks away I lean on the counter waiting bored, the door suddenly swings open a guy in a black leather jacket walks in his jeans were ripped and his hair was spiky and blue dark blue in a fuck boy hairstyle he was looking around but not noticing me but he didn't pay attention to me he finally walks to the counter leaning on it beside me I realized I was staring at him for too long and I guess he noticed his cold honey brown eyes moved to me and sent shivers down my spine I quickly took my eyes off him as I waited but I couldn't help it to stare his body was fit like an athlete,his cold honey brown eyes looked motionless and dazed and his jaw line looked chiseled like marble he was hot, he picked some candy and stuffed it in his pocket as I was about to open my mouth to say a word I was interrupted "here is your depressants"the pharmacist hands me the pills I pay for then and get my bills I started to walk towards the door "What would you like"the pharmacist asked the boy"some bandages"his sweet soothing voice replies I exit the pharmacy I stuff the little container in my pocket and I spot Randy leaning on the wall waiting for me he looks at me"finally what took you so long"he exclaims "dude that was just like some minutes"I say "well i hate waiting, come on let's go to the bar"he smiles as he turns leading the way to the bar I noticed that there were two guys leaning by the wall while I and Randy walked passed them they seem to be waiting for someone then blue hair boy comes by and starts to talk to them suddenly his eyes move on me those cold sexy brown eyes sent chills to my nerves I looked away and followed Randy to the bar.
We finally arrive to the bar as we got in music started to boom into my ears Randy lifted his hands up into the air screaming but I couldn't hear that was how loud the music was we walked to the table and sat on t youhe long stools "What would you guys like"the bartender asked "I'd like vodka "Randy bobs his head to the beat "and I want sex on the beach please just a little" the bartender nods and gets our drinks pouring it into the glass cups he gave us our drinks and Randy started to chug....i started to feel bored so I went to gamble with peeps for drinks but I didn't drink that much just for fun I started to get tipsy and tired everywhere was becoming so twisted and slow I had to get my balance and I had to get Randy I started to push my self against the sweaty and dancing crowd as I yell for Randy suddenly I bump Into someone I fall on my butt o the floor "hey can't you watch where you're going-"the person turns and it was max a smile crept on his face as his eyes met mine he smiles"well,well,well isn't it miss suicidal what brings you here"he asks "why don't you ask your momma"j reply he clenches his jaw"or you came here to get more depressed and kill your self nobody cares about you bitch not even your parents"a smile crept on his face as I stood up "shut up max nobody wants to hear your crap"I yell "uhh.maybe they do...yiure just afraid bitch cause you know what you did"he whispers at the last part getting closer I push him away and turned to go away but his friends block me he grabs me by the shoulder turning me to look at him "What are you hiding liner?"he asks but he knew why is he not saying it right now why isn't he exposing me "hey max see what I got"Danny maxs minion yells I turn to look and he was holding the anti depressants "give that back!"I yell about to get it but he tosses it at max and max catches it"I'm what is this for liner?"max asks I was about to charge at him but Danny and the other dudes held me as I struggle"anti depressants!!!"max announces and smirks"look honey nobody loves,no friends,no family,nobody will care whether you die or not so let me advice you why don't you die instead of being here huh?"he laughs "let her go Danny she needs to sober"max orders Danny let's me go and max throws the anti depressants at me it lands in my hands as a tear rolls down my cheek I rush to the door and walk out as the cool air touched my tears.
I stormed home wiping my tears but more would roll down I opened the door slowly to check if my parents were downstairs bit they weren't they were probably asleep I walk to room quietly and get a razor blade I walk I to the bathroom and pull my sleeve up revealing scars and cuts I hold the razor and start to cut my self ad blood drips I felt the pain a little it was like a sting that would just hurt for a while after that I took a shower and got out I put on a grey vest and panties and arrange my stuff for summer camp j carried some novels and sketchbooks and my laptop plus clothes I zipped of my box and flop on my bed as I got sleepy my eyes start to close and I black out.