My Heart Aches For you (GAJEVY)

4 in the morning

  My heart felt a little lifted, that lecy was coming in a matter of hours,  I really didn't have anything new happening of course cause my feelings have built some kind of barrier of the out word, I started to forcefully clean my apartment, doing my laundry and opening windows,  letting a little life back into my place, my heart raced faster each hour that passed, as I combed up my hair and cleaned my face with water, trying to put life back into my face, like it had any to start with. As the last couple hours came I decided to make her some food when she got here, she always loved my sugar dumplings,  which was simple dumplings but with sugar on to, but I felt more creative and decided to put little green sparkles on top, levy left some after Easter. It was the gayest shit I had ever done while cooking, but I didn't mind. I didn't mind at all, I just needed to see her, talk to her. It would be incredibly hard to act like I didn't feel anything for her, cause I did, I wanted to he her partner forever.
  "Come here quicker." I said looking at my watch. As I poured more flour into my dough mix. Making some for myself, without sprinkles.
  I now waiting with classical music playing low in the back, every minute  passed I got little more anxious and nervous, my long legs bounced up and down sitting on the couch biting my nails and staring at the door. Suddenly I heard faint footsteps that stopped at my door, I saw the shadow of two feet stand at my room for literally a couple of minutes, I sat there frozen till I heard the little knock of her knuckles. I got up and stood at the door, gently smiling I opened the door.
  What I thought I would see what definitely not what I got, the 4'11 girl had tears in her big eyes and she looked even smaller then normal, she was sobbing..then she went forward and hugged my torso, crying. I was struck with a defensive mode.
  "Levy?! What's the matter what are ya crying for?" I asked looking down at her. She pulled her face in my shirt.
  "Stupid Gajeel, I feel like such a terrible friend." I closed the door with her still on me, my brain was practically frozen, it got like that in weird situation, so, my heart took over.
  I lightly pulled her off, kneeled down at her height, and pulled her into my arms, she gasped, probably shocked by this sudden reaction, but so was I, but it felt so right.
  "Gajeel, are you alright?" She asked, I closed my eyes and held her tighter.
  "I am now." I said hastly, like I was out of breath, like the world would fall apart if I let her go. I stood up, with her still tightly in my arms and carried her over the the couch and set her down, her warmth still lingered, her eyes were still drizzling tears.
  "I forgive you shrimp. You did nothing wrong, you were just frustrated with the way I had acted these days, and I wanna say I'm sorry." I locked her eyes, the desire to be with her no longer was present but the desire to gain her trust as a partner again. She nodded wiping her tears.
  "Of course I forgive you, I could never stay mad at you, but can you tell me why you didn't just talk to me?"
  That's when I realized that if I answered that, in this moment I would tell her my true feelings for her, was I really ready for that? For rejection, for her to know?? I gulped and looked away.
  "Don't do that. " she tilted my head and made my eyes meet hers again. "Please."
  "It's really hard to explain I guess honestly the long trip back from the legit mission had me thinking about life and just wanted to be alone for a few days."
  "Yet you watched me at the event."
  "Well?" I said to her, she held her breath and then sighed.
  "What...what if I wanted you to go with me." She said looking away, the statement took me off guard.
  "Huh?"
  "You heard me, maybe then guys wouldn't come up to me and ask to dance."
  "I would just get in the way of you meeting good guys." I said, unaware of what I was actually saying, I was her protector, I wanted her to be happy. "Like the siren dude."I stood up and looked at her.
  "I made dumplings for you." I said, she rubbed her arm and smiled.
  "Yeah?" I snickered and retrieved then from the toasty oven and handed her a plate.
  "Green sparkles? Wow look at you." She laughed and dug in, I flushed red and and went back into the kitchen.
  "How was he, the date I mean." I focused on finding the wine I stashed away from her.
  "Um, wasn't the best." She said quietly. I chuckled. 
  "What, was he a weirdo?" I asked finding the bottle.
  "He was just too perfect, it didn't feel real, I didn't like the feeling, already through away the number."
  I walked over to her with two wine glasses and the bottle, she scolded when she saw it, before she got to protest I was already pouring her drink, you see I was a pretty fast worker.
  "Let loose shrimp. For once." I poured myself some and leaned back on the couch. She hesitated before taking and drink of her wine, I knew she drank, but it took her awhile to help me break from my addiction to it, it made her feel uneven, which I didn't blame. Poor girl, she has to deal with so many problems with me. I smiled at her, as she pulled hair behind her ear and proped her leg up on the couch.
  "How do you feel shrimp." I asked, she looked at me and nodded,
  "Fine now, now that I'm here with you, feels good to be hear again, missed my second home." She giggles and looks around the walls.
  For some time we walked, about the seasons changing, about the guild, lily, lucy, studying, books, tattoos. As these topics passed, the wine bottle slowly got less and less full, to the point it was 4 in the morning and we had multiple drinks of wine.
  Levy lay against my shoulder and laughed a little.
  "You want to know something Gajeel." She smiled sleepy at me.
  "Sure." I closed my eyes and relaxed.
  "Your so warm." I felt her snuggle up to me, my heart melted, was I really, warm? I didn't know anything would ever to be so close to me how levy is. She was definitely out of it though, she had to many to drink but she kept her cool, but it drained her energy.
  "You wouldn't get in the way of me meeting other men Gajeel..I mean...like how could I want any one else but you. My partner." She said. My heart felt like it was coughing on its own blood, my palms were sweaty, my cheeks felt hot, I felt my ears tingle as the words repeated in my head.
"Close your eyes shrimp." I said pressing my hand on her head, by the time I said that she was already have asleep, her chest moving steadily and her body close to mine.
  This wasn't the first time she's fallen asleep at my place, but the first time she was so so close to me, but it was just the wine talking, I knew it was. I slowly and gently got up, picked her up princess style and walked her to my bedroom. Laid her down on my bed and took her shoes and socks off and slide her legs under the covers, pulled them up to her chin.
  "Gajeel" I heard her say as I was leaving the room, turning back she sitting up.
  "Don't go." She said. This definitely wasnt the normal for her, she must have had too much to drink mixed with being so tired. I usually slept on the couch, actually I always slept on the couch.
  "Do you really want me to stay." I asked, leaning up against the bed. She nodded leaning forward to grab my collar, and tried to pull me up the bed. I laughed when she gave in a second later and laid back down, eyes still open to make sure I actually go in the bed.
  I took my shoes and socks off and took of my belt and climbed in the other side of the bed, staying on top of the covers and looked at levy, she was smiling into my eyes, she did this till she was fast asleep. I wanted her to know so badly, why couldn't I bring myself up to do it. Fucking stupid Gajeel.
  "I really like you levy." I whispered to her, knowing she was fully asleep it was still nice to finally say it, even if she was unconscious. I relaxed and fell asleep right next to her, as her protector.