Jay McGuiness FanFiction: There's Nothing That Can Hurt You, Nothing.

Chapter Fourteen - Everyday It Get's Harder To Breath

A few months later Jay’s finally aloud out of hospital; he has to take everything slow and stay away from as much stress as possible.

“Where do you want to go, Jay?” I ask my arm around his waist to support him as he walks.

“I just want to go home, with my beautiful girlfriend…” He says.

“I miss your cheesy moments” I laugh as he giggles, “And your laugh, your eyes-“ I get interrupted by him kissing me as we break apart “And when you do that…” I  chuckle, as we get into Tom’s car seeing as Jay can’t drive at the moment.

“Where to?” Tom laughs.

“Just home…” I say nodding, as Jay grips my hand.

As we get home we both have a sigh of relief as we make our way to the sofa, we both just lie there as Jay fiddles with my hair, my hand on his chest rising as he breathes in and falls when he breathes out. The comfort of being with Jay is enough for me.

“You’re so brave Jay…” I mumble.

“All for you, Lacey…” He replies as I smile, my hand clinging on his tshirt.

“You don’t deserve me.” I mumble to myself.

“What?” He asks.

“Nothing.” I quickly say, feeling the guilt rise in me, but I really think he don’t… What have I done? What has we done? I can’t blame Nathan for what’s happened, I can only blame myself.

The next week everyone comes round to see Jay; I hear a knock on the door to reveal Max and Nathan first. As I hug Nathan, I see a concerned Max behind him, me and Max have got so close we’re like brother and sister and I guess he’s just worried for his ‘younger sister.’ Yet it’s not like Nathan would hurt me, despite fucking up a few weeks ago. I pull away and then hug Max squeezing him tight. I let go and go back to Jay’s arms when the doorbell rings as Max gets it to reveal Tom and Kelsey. They race up to Jay and I and hug us both into a big group as Max and Nathan join jokingly. Finally Nareesha and Siva are here, hugging us all.

“Does everyone want drinks?” I ask as they all shout out their requests, as I try to memorise what everyone wants Nathan stands up and decides to help me with the drinks. Great. We walk into the kitchen as I open the fridge taking out four cans of beer for Max, Siva, Nathan and Tom but none for Jay because the doctor says he can’t drink until he’s back to normal. I take out two cans of coke me and Jay and then making Kelsey and Nareesha’s drinks seeing as they both requested vodka and coke. I shut the fridge to reveal Nathan’s face filling with worries.

“When we going to tell Jay?” He whispers making sure no one outside the kitchen could hear us.

“When Jay gets his strength back, the doctor said that he should have limited stress.” I explain.

“What we going to say?” Nathan asks as I pour Nareesha and Kelsey’s drinks.

“What else could we say apart from you and I kissed?” I hesitate the last syllable as Max walks in, “Max lend us a hand and give them to the rest of the boys?” I say passing him two cans.

“You two kissed?” Max said his jaw dropping.

“Nath, mate what did I say and Lacey? Really?” Max says.

“Max it was a mistake I didn’t mean for it to happen, please wait until Jay’s better for me and Nath to tell him?” I plead shaking, as he nods.

“Yeah whatever…” He says but you can see the disappoint lying deep within those sliver eyes. He really is like a big brother.

Later into night the boys get pissed out of their heads apart from Jay – he’s the sensible one for once in his life. Nareesha, Kelsey and I are in mine and Jay’s bedroom as I lay on the bed in Jay’s jumper as they find me and Jay ‘adorable.’ We end up having a dead girly chat mainly about our boyfriends Siva, Tom and Jay.

“I LOVE LACEY JENKINS!” We hear a voice slur interrupting our conversation.

“Awww that must be Jay! Hang on Jay wasn’t drinking and that sounded pretty slurred…” Kelsey said confused as I rush to the door and open it to see a drunk Max giggling his arse off.

“No! Nathan, don’t tell Jay until he’s okay remember!” Max slurs.

“Don’t tell me what?” Jay says angrily as he stares at me.

“Oh you’re in shit now!” Tom laughs, “Whatever shit that would be…” He carries on as Kelsey and Nareesha are behind me confused.

“Lacey, what’s happened?” Jay asks confused, hurt, angry, sad countless emotions written over his pale, delicate face.

“Jay, can I talk to you…”

“WE KISSED! I KISSED LACEY JENKINS BECAUSE I FUCKING LOVE HER!” Nathan slurs.

“What?” Jay manages to mumble.

“Jay let me explain!”

“Everyone get out!” Jay shouts as people leave the room one by one whispering by to me. As Nathan tries to leave an arm stops him. Jay’s arms.

“You stay here too…” Jay says.

The room is filled with silence as I stare down at Jay’s jumper playing with the cuffs of it. I don’t make eye contact with anyone. Nathan’s passed out of the sofa and I can hear the sniffs of Jay. I know I can’t force myself to look at him because if I see him cry all I’ll want to do is hug him, kiss him, tell him everything’s gonna be okay, that he doesn’t deserve the person who did that to him… Why did I do that to him?

“Lacey… Lacey!” I hear Jay say through the tears, I keep my eyes focused on the jumper as my vision blurs, “Lacey, please tell me what happened…” He pleads, “Lacey…” He stutters.

“I-I kissed Nathan…” I say still not looking at him, “I missed you, Jay, I needed you… Nathan was there for me consistently throughout the whole thing, I wasn’t thinking straight…”

“You got that right.”

“I went round his house on the first night…”

“You disgust me…”

“We didn’t do anything! We watched Avatar, had skittles and Guiness… For the rest of the month he kept asking me back round, we both couldn’t sleep, it was nice having company but I said no until one night…”

“Oh here we go.”

“You know, Jay, if you’re gonna keep interrupting me I’ll just leave! I know we’re going to break up anyway but you just won’t hear my side!” I manage to shout through the tears.

“I’ll listen…” He stutters.

“Jay… I got drunk and kissed him that was it!”

“That bastard.” Jay says under his breath talking about Nathan.

“No Jay, you should be mad at me not him! He stopped me doing anything else!” I say fast as Jay stands up, I put my hand on his chest and hear his heart pump twist as fast as his fists clench, “Don’t do anything to Nathan, he doesn’t deserve it…”

“But you kissed him back, he kissed you back…” Jay says, “Fuck off back to Nathan’s you slut!” He says as the words kill me inside.

“Jay, how could you say that?” I cried.

“How could you do that, Lacey?” I begin to sob as Jay kisses me for the last time I kiss him back until he breaks apart from me quickly. Knowing that was our last kiss made me sob harder. I wake Nathan up before driving Nathan’s car back to his house. I’ve basically invited myself over to Nathan’s but I’m sure sober Nathan would understand. I have nowhere else to go, unless I move back to California and live with my parents…