A New Beginning

Chapter Three: I'm Not What You Need

I had been laying in my room at the Inn for a few hours. I got up and looked out the window, the stars were bright this evening. It didn't matter, they seemed dull to me. Everything had lost its sparkle after what happened today. Food had no taste, the sky had no color.

I was lost. Alone. For the first time in a very long time.

I shook my head, trying to escape this fog. I decided that I would go to one of the local bars in town. Maybe that will help my mind get off things.

I walked in and quietly sat at the bar. I've never really drank alcohol before. Besides a few sneaked sips here and there. I wasn't sure what to order, so I just got the special of the night.

It was bigger than I thought it would be. Well I guess I'm going to need a lot to erase Eren from myself. I decided to order a second one before I had began drinking. I took a big swig, and it burned my throat. It was a good burn. A reminder that I still existed.

I drank my first one as fast as I could, trying to get past the taste. By the second one, I didn't notice the taste as much. This one went down much smoother than the first one, I even decided to get a third one. As my third drink was put in front of me, I heard a group of people enter the bar. Looking over, I recognized Jean and Levi within the group of people.

I quickly turned around, and took another swig of my drink. I knew that they would see me here. The group approached the bar I was sitting at to order, and I felt a hand on my shoulder.

I look over to see the hand belonged to Jean. He had a goofy grin.

"It's good to see you again, Mikasa", He said.

I nodded and looked back to my drink. They started ordering their drinks. I was half way through my third one when the alcohol finally hit me. My vision became a little blurred, if I moved my head too fast my world would spin.

I liked this feeling. I'm barely even thinking of Er--

I dropped my head, stopping myself from thinking about him. I took another swig. My world was spinning, so I laid my head down.

"How many is that?", I looked up to see Levi staring at me.

My speech was slurred, "Does it matter?"

"That's my girl!", Jean interrupted and put his arm sloppily around me. He was already tipsy.

Levi rolled his eyes, "Mikasa, what is going on? Why are you here?"

I laughed and said, "I honestly don't know."

Jean responded, "Stop questioning her, let's just enjoy our time with her."

He smiled at me. It repulsed me a bit. He was trying too hard, and was getting more drunk by the second. But why does it matter? It's not like I'm waiting for Eren anymore.

I showed Jean a smile, and he took that opportunity to flirt.

"Wow. Mikasa, your smile is gorgeous", He slurred.

I tucked a strand of hair behind my ear, "Thank you."

I finished the rest of my drink.

Jean looked at me and asked, "Hey do you want to go back to my place?"

Levi immediately interjected, "Absolutely not."

I looked at Levi and said, "Actually, I can make my own decisions." My gaze went back to Jean and I responded, "Sure."

It felt like we had been walking forever. My vision is still blurred, and I'm stumbling pretty bad. Jean was practically carrying me. I heard him talking to someone, and I looked over to see that he's talking to a guard. I looked in front of me to see the palace. I immediately started sobering up from shock.