poems

Perfect

I don't understand you
I love our conversations
But we barely talk
I message you
And don't get a response
Half the time
Yet when
Your name
Shows up
On my screen
I get so
Excited
When you got
A new facebook
You sent me
a friend request
You followed me
On instagram
And I didn't even know
You had one
I don't know what to think
You're amazing
You make me happy
I fell in love with you
You known me
At my best
And at my worst
You know more stuff
Then others
You know all
Of the bad things
About me
But now
When I message you
I don't expect a response
Anymore
Yet I care so much
About you
And your opinion
When I mess up
I freak out
And apologize
Non stop
Because
I don't want to lose you
It's insane
To feel this way
For only knowing you
For little over a year
Even when I start
Liking someone
It always ends up
Going back to you
You're eighteen
So as soon as you
Finish this year
Of high school
You get to leave
I don't know why
I did this to myself
My brain
Knows logically
That it's not
A high chance
Of us getting together
But my heart
Craves you
So much
My brain
And my heart
Are in a war
Against each other
Because of you
We first started talking
In the beginning of July
Of 2017
We first met at school
On October 2
That same year
Walking down
A hallway
We know as Main Street
It was during
The second class
Of the day
I was heading to my locker
And we saw each other
You waved at me
So I waved back
That was
The first time
I felt
Butterflies
In my stomach
Because of you
I'll never tell you this
But
I'm in love
With you
And I don't care
What anyone else
Will ever think
About you
Because
To me
You are
Imperfectly
Perfect