I presume that all the signs were already there, but I was trying hard to blind myself from them. It wasn't easy, I was in a relationship, a serious one, with a cool and nice dude, and she... she was about to get married, yes, don't blink twice, she was, and not just with a random guy, she was going to married with my fiance's best friend. I was in a deep swamp full of emotions.
If I close my eyes right now, I can still sense that French perfume that never leave her, I still can feel how her body fited perfectly with mine, I still know that I was born to loved her, yeah, I'm being cheesy, don't kill me, but what can I do? people in love tend to get a little cheesy, the universe's rules, why should I complain?
Funny when I think, that she never really knew at first, she just thought I was being friendly, like, yeah we worked together, we spent a lot of time around each other, perhaps it was just friendship to her, but to me, being so close and yet so far, it was hell, I'm not exagerating, it was a real nightmare, lying to Benny - fiance's name - lying to her, and worst of it, lying to myself, that was exactly what I was doing, trying to bury those feelings, I was so closed up. Want an advice? Never do such thing, it never works, trust me.
1968. It was a cold November, well, in Sweden always is cold, but that year was paralyzing freezing. Since I woke up that day I knew that something in the air was telling me: 'Here comes trouble' so I planned to stay in bed the whole day, but of course Benny had other plans, one of those was to drag me to the house of his buddy Björn and get to know his girlfriend.
I wasn't in the mood for such thing, but I did, sometimes I wonder how much different my life would be if I would have had stucked to my original plan.
- "Hello, I finally get to know you, I've heard a lot about you, I'm Agnetha by the way"
Simple as that, that was the way she introduced herself to me, I've to admit I held her hand for way too long, God, it was embarrasing, I know, but it felt right.
When I got down to Earth again, I spoke. - "Yeah, I know who you are, I mean, Benny has told me, I'm glad we met at last." - I give her one of my awkard smiles and hoped for the best.
I know its childish but I was kinda afraid to look at her, she was so damn beautiful - she still is - and beauty always terrifies me, in a good way, you know, I feel that some things or some people are so stunning that it hurts, with her, I was frighten than ever.
And when I did, when I looked up at her, I saw my destiny.
Temptation comes to all of us. Whether we succumb to it or not depends on our ability to recongnize it's disguise. Sometimes it comes in the form of a new friend, who can be so much more, who awakens feelings we didn't know we had. And so we give in to temptation, all the while knowing that when morning arrives, we'll have to suffer the consequences.
We can not prevent what we can not predict, and God knows I never knew how much I'd fall for Agnetha.
