- "Darling, it's 4AM, the boys will be here soon, you should go to your room"
She looked at me like a girl searching for the lights way back home. Gosh, I loved her.
She snuggled close to me, - "I don't want to".
- "Well, I don't know how we'll be explain this to them if you stay" - I said while touching her face.
Agnetha took me by surprise, and climbed on me, showing me all the glory of her nakedness, - "Why it took us so long?" - she asked.
- "Well, I could ask you the same".
- "Gosh Frida, my life was so easy before you, I had it all planned, but then you appeared and now everything is upside down"
- "Should I take that as a compliment?"
She laughed and the sound of it, fill the air.
- "Well, you made me came like nobody else ever did, take that as a compliment"
Just to heard such thing made me want to do very bad things with her... again.
She nudged her nose against mine and our lips met in an indulgent kiss. It was more languid than earlier, slow and soft and full of love, but by no means lacking in passion and I began to feel stir in response.
- "Anna, you're going to be the death of me if you keep kissing me like that".
She smirked softly, - "Do you want me to stop, darling?"
- "You know I don't, but- "
- "Yes, I know, the guys"
- "Anna we'll find a way, alright? trust me"
She didn't answer, she then get up and I felt the loss of her warm.
- "Anna wait", - I needed to be sure that we were ok, - "When can I see you again?" damn! I sounded like a teenage boy.
- "Frida, you see me everyday", - Anna took my hands and I felt all those butterflies that people in love always comment.
- "I know, but now it's different"
- "Now it's better".
And with that, she went out, leaving me in a state of happiness and confusion.
The day after, Benny sensed my state, - "Love are you ok? You look tense"
- "I'm fine, just tired", - I hated lying to him this way but what's else could I did?
- "I know, we all are, it will over soon"
Yeah, the tour might soon over, but it would not be so for my problem.
I saw Agnetha during a break for lunch, I asked her out for some ice cream, I was dying for took her hand in mine but we were in public. Fuck off with this fame!
I didn't feel in the mood for a talk, I just wanted to enjoy her company.
- "You've been quiet, something's wrong?"
- "Well, how a thing that it feels so right could be consider it wrong?" I said.
She gave me one of her million dollar smiles and out of the blue started to sing close to me.
'I, I'm gonna make you mine
You're gonna feel so fine
You'll never want to leave me'
I blushed and she noticed it instantly, - "Frida, you're blushing! Have ever told you how much I love your freckles?"
- "No, and by the way, I hate them"
- "No way, they're the cutest, they fits you, you're the most beautiful woman on Earth"
- "Ok, now you're flattering"
- "I'm not, YOU ARE! Anni-Frid Lyngstad you are, and I'll not accept a no, did you hear me?"
- "I didn't know you were so bossy" - I said while I tickled her.
I never knew that a moment as banal as that, could also be one of the happiest of my life.
Before we were back with the band I took under a tree, far away from gossipers's eyes.
'I, I don't know what you do
You make me think that you
You'll be able to
Make all my dreams come true
And you ease me'
Yeah, we were that cheesy, and we gave a damn!
But this was not a fairy tale, I would fight for our happy ending, but on the way to it, there would be several obstacles.
One of them was this 'secret thing', keeping secrets is a lonely business, I wanted so desperately to tell Benny but everytime I made up my mind, I couldn't, I couldn't even looked at him.
The tour ended, we went back home, and I knew I wouldn't be able to see Agnetha for awhile, she needed her time with her daughter, I also used it for my children, but she was still there, at the bottom of my mind, and mostly, at the bottom of my heart.
It was not normal for me to be at home on a Monday, but I was, and also bored, wanna know how bored I was? Well, I actually almost cleaned the house.
Benny as usual, was working, even when it was not necessary! Men!
I felt like calling her and so I did, "Hey, I need to say something to you Anna" I said sounding quite serious, - "I love you once. I love you twice. I love you more than beans and rice".
I could felt her smile - "Frida, I've been thinking of you... I want to see you, may I go to your place? I know Benny is with Björn"
- "Yes, just give me 10 minutes to look presentable"
- "Frida, I've see you naked and tasted all of you, I think we are beyond the 'presentable lines'"
- "Ok, you have a point"
When she appeared at my door, she looked even more beautiful than I remembered.
- "I've been waiting for you" - I said in a silly way.
- "We still are in that song's mood uh?"
- "Always" - and I took her in my arms, no more words were exchanged, there's was no need of it, the only thing that mattered at the moment was knowing that we were where we belonged, in each other arms.
I leaded us to my room, she was eager and so was I, she forgot about the buttons at my blouse and tugged it over my shoulders, tossing it towards the dresser, before moving her hands to my pants, stripped them off too.
- "We better get everything else off before you ruin the entire wardrobe", - I said grinning at the sight of Agnetha and feeling happier than ever. She was mine.
While she was dozing by my side, I sensed the love all over me again, yes, love can bring out the best in us... the confidence to move on, the courage to tell the truth, the strength to keep hoping. It also bring a sense of security, it's something we all search for whether it's knowing you're desired, taking control of our fears, or finding strength to do the right thing. But, the danger of a sense of security is that it may prove to be false.
Agnetha and me were more than bind together now, and there would be not return from it - Sharing our love, comforting each other in times of need, finding it in our hearts to forgive. But, the thing that binded us together the most is this secret that changed everything. For better or for worst.
