I fell in love with Jason Aldean

Memories Enough To Tear Me Wide Open

Jason's pov

*A few weeks later*

I was just getting offstage when Luke sent me another picture of Jack. He's been sending me pictures left and right. Hat guy sure is excited. Makes me laugh thinking of when Sierra first found out she was pregnant. Ugh. Just makes me think of not being ready. I still don't know if I'm fully ready for all this. I mean 2 kids instead of one. It's a little worrying for someone who wasn't even ready for one. But then I look at Luke. He wasn't ready in the beginning now look at him. I get back to the bus with alot on my mind. "Babe?" I call. J walk in our room and she's asleep. Man she's amazing. But I got to tell her. I can't name the baby after my sister. It hurts too much to think about. I sit on the bed beside her and shake her awake. "What's wrong?" "I've got to tell you something... And I don't know how you'll take it." "Tell me what? Are you okay?" I sigh. "I just.... I don't think we can name the baby after Kasi. It just....  It hurts too much." "Oh. I don't mind, Jason. Whatever you want to do. But you scared me coming on like that." "Oh. Sorry. I just didn't know.... Really how to say it. I'm so nervous about all this." "You're going to make a great father. You were amazing with those kids." I smile, remembering all that. It sure was fun. They looked up to me. It was amazing. "You okay, Jase?" I nod. "I can't wait to have these babies."

*A few months later*

We've got some shows in Georgia so I stopped by to see my mother. She was babysitting some neighbor's kid. "Hey mama." I say, hugging her. "It's so great to see you, son." I sit on the couch while the three year old was playing with toys. "Miranda told me how nervous you've been about the pregnancy." Oh man. I figured she would. "What's got ya worried?" "I don't know. I don't know if I can do this. And I know what you're thinking. Luke was the same way and when they get here, I'll be just like him.... But.... I just don't know." "I wish I knew what to say to put your mind at ease." I do too. "I'll be right back." She heads upstairs. I wonder what's up. "Hey can you feed Izabelle some lunch." I hear mom shout from upstairs. "Got it, mama." I call back, standing up. "Come on, kiddo. Ya hungry?" "Yeah. Race ya!" She shouts running to the kitchen. Man.

~flashback~

"Race ya!" My younger sister hollers when mom calls lunch. We trip over each other trying to beat the other to the kitchen. Mom shook her head with a smile. "I win." I say. "No! I did!" My little sister shouts, jumping off her chair onto my back. I stumbled laughing. "You crazy!" I shout.

~flashback over~

"I beat ya! I beat ya!" Izabelle shouts, pulling me out of that memory. "Sure thing, kid. Ya beat me." I say, walking into the kitchen. "What ya hungry for?" "Can you make peanut butter crackers?" "Sure." The little girl swings her legs while sitting at the table just like my sister used to do.

~flashback~

She was swinging her legs, waiting for dinner. I glare at her. "Stop kickin' me!" I snap annoyed. "I ain't kickin' you!" See snaps back, kicking me again for good measure! I kick her back. "Why you!" She shouts, kicking me again. I woulda kicked her again but mama came outta the kitchen putting a end to our childish squabbling.

~flashback over~

I make peanut butter crackers for the little girl, smiling at the fond memory. I miss my sister so much. I can't believe I'm going to be a dad to twins. God I love my wife.