save me ( book 2 of having 18 brothers )

part 14

 I just sat there looking at the tv without it being open. i just stared at my reflection at the back screen infant of me. What will happen when my brothers come home? what will they do? will they make a mistake again? will they ever learn from their mistakes?

i sigh, but as i was about to get up. 18 people flooded at the front of the door, ignoring my presence. yup.... they are going to ignore me. i looked at them, as they never even tried to take one single glance at me, except for win win and kun? They were smiling at me. i guess that they knew i did nothing wrong.

i walked to the kitchen, and sat on the chair. 

" why?" i heard a voice. i looked up to see taeil near me with an angry face

" dude i just got back from the hospital yesterday!" i yelled

" i know. but why were you not in class? that means you had it with minho!" taeil shouted at me

" i think is enough now, we have to stop" kun said 

" whatever. you are young ari. i don't know what is going in your mind." he said and walk up

i sigh and looked down at my untouched food infant of me. I had lost my appetite, thinking that they thought i had it with minho. 'MAN I WOULD NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE IT WITH MINHO! I WOULD RATHER HAVE IT WITH .... NeVeRmInD. ' I thought

I walked up into my room, and jump on my bed and sigh for so long, even my face turn people for not breathing. i heard a creaking sound open and i saw haechan walking in. He took his comforter and his pillow along with his clothes. what is he doing

" w-what are y-you doing?" he said 

" i am sleeping with mark for now. so you will be alone." he said. He is telling  a lie. i know, he wants to be away from me, because of the incident that happen today. I felt the urge of crying, I can't sleep alone too. Nobody will even want to accept me into their room, and if win win or kun allow me, i will still not because they will think otherwise. 

i just couldn't handle it anymore. i took out my razor that i had kept in the drawer safe where nobody will find it. i began cutting my hand and i felt nothing as the pain in my had arouse from me...once again. I just can't take it. i began packing my bags. I am leaving this country. I don't want to be here. I booked a flight ticket to malaysia. After i have don packing and more, i wrote a note, sticking it on everyones door saying:

 ' i did not do it...' 

i waited for everyone to fall asleep. when the cost is clear, i sucked out and walked to the bus stop. is this for real? i am running away from home? 

the bus stops and took me to the airport. i had checked in my languages and i walked to the boarding line, and boarded the plane. I turn towards the window and take a one last glance at korea. I am going to miss everyone here. i sigh as a tear left me. this will all not happen when yeri will not do this. 

" passengers please put in your seatbelt" the cabin crew voiced out. ( idk what they say, i forgot) 

this had been a long day for me. I close me eyes and drifted to sleep

3rd point of view. 

everybody woke up from their sleep. They all rush out to have breakfast. win win was about to call ari to have breakfast with them. he knocked on the door, there was no answer. he knocked again, and still... no answer. He was worrying.