Rí-al Love

13. His Day

7th Oct, 2018

'Same pain hits my heart now,
Why again this much of emotions coming to my heart,
Why did he changed when I asked him to change,
Then why didn't he persist his change throughout his life,
He cheated me with his fake words which he gave seven years back,
Same emotions rushing my heart now when I heard him saying, 'I had gone to theatre',
Some kind of betrayal hits my heart,
I can understand his desires,
his feelings, the way he brought up,
But why did he gave his words in the beginning when he couldn't follow,
May be am I stressed him with Islam those times,
Anyway from now I don't stress him with any,
Let him follow Islam when he realises my intention towards going theatre...'

Ridha fed up with her thoughts when she knows that her Ahmed gone to theatre. Nowadays he is telling her usually about the thing which is hurting her most of the times. She left not to argue with him again and again on the same thing which he doesn't realise that it was restricted in Islam.

So she doesn't like to reply him for the message. At the same time, she can't avoid him as a whole, so she diverted the topic and told him to take rest since he was gone outside. Ahmed tried his best to get her into normal chat, but she couldn't chat with him normally when her heart and mind is arguing with eachother. She left online by saying 'Fee amanullah'.

The whole night she was disturbed by the thought why did he got changed from his words. Ahmed was not that type to switch from one words to other. He will be constant in his words. But for the two times, he switched in his words. One is for going theatre and the other is for his passionate dance. He gave his words for this two things during his XII Grade. When Ridha told him that this two things are restricted in Islam, he accepted it.

That time, she didn't thought why he accepted his likeliness soon after she said. But now she came to know because she stressed him to follow Islam. May be with his blind love on her, he accepted it. Now, he is refusing the same thing when he gets her love abundantly. She doesn't know what the solution will be. But she just wants to be silent this time.

Let him understand when he realises about Islam, it's rules and she hoped that her Rabbu will guide him one day. Ridha slept by thinking over him late night. Then she got woked up by her usual alarm at 4:45 AM, because from that time till, 5 A.M , he'll call Ahmed to wake him for fajr. After waking him, she'll make her way to do wudhu for her namaz.

But today, she doesn't like to call him for fajr. Something resisted her and said , 'Why are you pushing him to do for Islam when he doesn't wish to do himself?.' She felt a little ache asusal in her heart when she thought about him.

She deprived of her thoughts and after making her namaz, she took her Qur'an and recited for some time.
She recited an ayath which makes her too relief to get close with her Rabbu.

"Indeed my Lord is near and Responsive"
(Al-Qur'an 11:61)

While finishing, she took the Qur'an to her heart and hold it tightly between her chest and her folded hands and single tear passed her cheeks by thinking of Ahmed's words and practices of Islam those days.

They used to read Qur'an after every Magrib. But the habit lasts till last Eid -ul- fitr because they used to compete each other in reading Qur'an and end the whole book on the day before Eid. But this time, Ahmed didn't accompany Ridha and he finished late after Eid. Then they started to read at every day fajr or magrib because Ahmed couldn't find time after magrib due to his work. So Ridha accepted his request, but still Ahmed didn't show his interest to read everyday. So Ridha left that also not to stress him over it.