my nights diary

My back story

I don't believe I've told you yet, but my name is Faith. I'm writing this story to maintain my sanity. I explained in the last chapter what tonight has brought me and that I'm feeling really sad right now. That I want an exit. So basically in a short version I have four brothers two of which have passed away. My eldest brother passed away when I was three years old (I'm 15). He passed away of an illness called cystic fibrosis. I don't really know him so his death doesn't give me to much trouble. My second eldest brother passed away when I was eight. He died in a car crash. His death gives me a lot of trouble I cry almost every night because of his death. He meant a lot to me and I really miss and love him. It's really scary to be in cars sometimes. I think his death is my fault because I could have asked him to ride the bus to school with me he would have. I'm his baby sister he was 18. He passed away six days after his 18th birthday. I wished I could have just one minute with myself back then to tell myself to just ask him to ride the bus with me. I'm sure he would have. He died on his way to school. My bio father his name is Randy he is the worst of the worst. He is a terrible human being. He is in prison and I hate him. He's a sex offender. He did something to my second eldest brother. And he also punched him in the face to for simply not saying happy birthday. He did a lot of drugs. Mainly crystal meth. He brought it to the house and he almost his my mom when she dumped it all in our backyard. But he's just a terrible human. That's all I'm gonna say about him. Thank you for reading it means a lot that someone would take time out of their day to read the shit I'm typing. I don't think anyone will care. Even if I disappeared my mom probably wouldn't care. It seems like she never cares because she always yells at me she never yells at my brother. I honestly feel like she hates me at times. I have to go to bed its 11:44pm and O have to get up at 5am tomorrow to wake my mom up so she can drive my brother to school. Goodnight.