my thoughts on the blue marble

feeling good or better

        when i was younger i went through some bad patches. i was miserable and i thought no-one could relate or even care. when i tried to show others that i needed help or reassurance my gestures were taken the wrong ways or people would tell me that 'it will be okay' or 'calm down', which depressed and pissed me off.

        It will be okay?  You'll be fine?  Just calm down?! How would this help me?! i felt like they were telling a drowning man to just breath. yeah, right that's gonna happen. so i raged and cried, so i struggled, i ran myself ragged. i still do struggle but i managed to come out of it. then i understood what they had meant when all those people had told me i'd be fine. so to the people that are suffering and feel worthless, feel alone, feel like nobody would care, like their invisible, to the people who get confused or mad when some one says they'll be okay, to people that are human, when those unhelpful people trying their best say 'you'll be okay' they aren't mocking you.

           you'll be okay is a blanket term that can be translated: you will have hell now and struggle and not many will tell you how to, but you will come out on the other side. i know that this will be true for most people because we, as humans, grow by pain and when some one tells you the exact steps on how to do something that you have to do by your self  you will fail or learn nothing. but taking a look around you and assessing whether your fears or negative thoughts are as real as they feel will always help. because no-one is actually alone and no-one deserves to cry and feel wrecked with out some one telling them that they deserve happiness. when your in a bad patch try to think why and then try to be easy on your self because everything passes and you will get through the rough parts. you deserve good things.

-bard out

sorry no poems yet.=)