Surviving Senior Year

Failed Homecoming

Almost every girl dreams of having their crush ask them to homecoming with a cute sign or flowers to make it special. This is true even more so for senior year, ever since freshman year I dreamed about this. I hopefully would have a boyfriend that I truly liked and he would ask me to homecoming in a sweet way like coming through my drive through at work with a sign or parting the sea of the student section at a home game. Which thinking about it seems unrealistic, but I can dream.

Going into senior year, I did not have a boyfriend or even a boy that could potentially become one. It is hard to see my friends with guys, or going through multiple guys when I seem to stay single. While some people make the choice to not be involved with someone, nobody wants to have to make that choice because nobody wants them. It is one of the hardest things to realize nobody likes you, and it made a HUGE dent in my self-esteem.

Like is there something wrong with my personality? Am I just not pretty? Or am I not smart enough or athletic enough? Or maybe its that I'm too fat? All of these are questions I have on a daily basis.

I have never been the girl who got all the guys, and all of the ones I did seem to catch weren't even catches at all. They all either wanted to use me or were not who they pretended to be.