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Sophia.

Noah and Nathalie headed home early for obvious reasons only Noah and I know...

Kassidy questioned it but i couldn't tell her...I felt so disgusting and stupid after realizing what I did...

Nathalie seemed like a bitch so i didn't mind at first but then talking to her and seeing how vulnerable and worried she was reminded me of all the times I felt insecure over Noah.

How scared i was that he'd find something new...and better. Crying myself to sleep after our stupid arguments that my insecurities caused...

I couldn't continue to let her feel that way and be the reason her heart is broken...she doesn't deserve that.

" You ready?...everything's all packed up we just have to go get Kassidy and Vanessa." Mom weakly smiled leaning on my doorway.

I know this is hard on her...I've always been there to keep her spirits up once her and my dad got a divorce.

She was very sad and emotional after the fact and it was very scary and hard but i knew that she was hurting extremely badly and she needed time so i pitched in and took care of Jaden and I.

I learned how to cook just so Jaden wouldn't starve and I never hated my mom for that...I understood completely.

I could talk to my mom about anything. She doesn't judge me and she gives me great advice.

But I hate crying around her though, sometimes it makes her feel like she's doing something bad like she's ruining our lives when that's not true at all. She tries her best to  show me and Jaden love and does an amazing job at it...

I love her so much.

" Uhm...Mom can i talk to you really quick?" I asked twisting my lips.

" Sure honey,  what's wrong?" she asked concerned walking over and taking a seat beside me on the bed.

" I-I did a horrible thing...and I...I can't stop scolding myself and making myself think about what i did and I-I'm so stupid" I broke down, covering my ugly crying face with my hands.

" Hey...shhh, Mommy's right here okay?...I'm not gonna judge you baby...what happened?" she asked running her fingers through my hair.

" I had sex with Noah...I-I basically helped him cheat on Nathalie with me!...she's really sweet a-and she doesn't deserve that!" I sniffled shaking my head. " I'm such a freaking whore!"

" Hey...hey stop!...Stop that right now!...You're not a whore...Yes you did something inconsiderate but you're not the one in a relationship...Noah knew better../If he truly loved that girl he wouldn't have done that...He is 21 years old and yes you should've controlled your self for Nathalia's sake but do not put all the blame on your self for being in love with him" she said caressing my cheek. I sighed wiping my face.

" I still feel like it'd be my fault that he broke up with her...he got really upset when i told him i couldn't be with him...He begged and he cried but when he left he sent this long text telling me he loves me and wants me to be happy although he's not...what does that mean?" i asked twisting my lips.

" He loves you baby but he needs to get his priorities straight...he's too old for that bullshit...and I won't let you get hurt because of it..." she said running her fingers through my hair.

" You need to focus on being happy and getting through college for right now anyway...i'm not saying to forget about boys and all that even though i don't want you dating anyway...I'm just saying do what's more important for you right now" she said cupping my face in her hands. I nodded looking up at her.

" Thank you mommy" i weakly smiled tearing up.

" i'm always gonna be here for you princess...i love you and Jaden so much you don't even know..." she lightly chuckled caressing my cheek.

I smiled kissing her cheek.

" We love you too momma" Jaden smiled poking his head into the room. I smiled opening my arms.

Jaden smiled walking over and wrapping his arms around the both of us.

" Noah's a asshole...You deserve better anyway..." Jaden shook his head.

" You were eavesdropping?!" I squeaked slapping his chest.

" Ow!...You asswipe!" Jaden exclaimed rubbing where i hit his chest.

The both of us continued to go back and forth swatting and hitting each other on the chest and arms.

" you two! stop it!" Momma exclaimed with a stern glare. " say sorry...now" she said pointing at the both of us.

" Ugh...Sorry Sophia" Jaden groaned pouting.

" Sorry Jay" I mumbled rolling my eyes.

" Apology accepted...Now...I have a bestfriend to attend to" he smirked hopping up off the bed waltzing out the room.

Mom shook her head laughing.

" You two ladies ready to go?" Derek asked poking his head in the room. I nodded hopping up off the bed.

I turned to look at my mom, she was
crying her eyes out covering her mouth.

" Ohh momma!" i sighed wrapping my arms around her tiny little body. " i'm gonna visit almost every weekend yanno and i'm gonna call you every night...I'm only an hour or 2 away mommy...Please don't cry" I sniffled burying my head in the crook of her neck...

"I can't...You're growing up way too fast for my liking" she cried wiping her face. I smiled shaking my head.

" I love you momma...I love you so much..." I said softly, Kissing her cheeks.

Derek softly smiled walking over and kissing her.

" I love you too Victoria..."