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Victoria.

I almost had sex with him...

I almost had sex with my ex husband at work...

I was so close to hurting Derek more and more.

I just can't get Jack out my mind and i feel terrible.

These past few weeks have been the most stressful weeks of my life. The thought of Jack and i getting back together terrified me but for some reason i had this strange addiction to him and us. 

I had to pull myself away before it was too much, I had tell him no. 

No matter how much hurt his facial expressions showed once those words left my mouth would make me cheat on the man who has showed me nothing but love and support.

Derek.

I let out a tired sigh carrying my tired body up the porch steps of my home. 

The lights were on and i caught a glimpse of Derek  from the sheer curtains in my living room window. The thing was, he wasn't alone. 

There was a pretty girl

Scratch that

There was a very gorgeous girl sitting beside him on our couch. The both of them had glasses in their hands, half filled with what looked like white wine. They must've been alone for a while. My mind started to come up with all types of situations that could happen.

Maybe she's a friend?

Maybe she's someone close that he's just catching up with?

Maybe she's and ex.

My body started to feel numb as i watched them smile at each other and laugh. Their bodies so close together.

What was happening in my home right now?

I started to go find out for my self and confirm that my suspicions were false. I used my key to unlock the door quickly, holding the door knob as i took a step in. As soon as i looked up from the door my heart shattered.

Their lips mingled together at the beginning of what would've lead into an intimate situation. Derek's hands hidden under the back of the girl's shirt as she began to climb on to his lap. 

They hadn't noticed me yet but i noticed them and seeing this go down just left me speechless. 

I felt myself began to cry, my eyes water and become blurry from the tears building up in my water line.

My bags drop from my trembling hands. 

Not again.

I thought i finally found someone who loved me, who treated me like a queen and would never hurt me.

The sound of my bags connecting with the smooth wooden floors seemed to startle the two because as soon as they dropped, their heads shot up to my direction like two deer in a headlight.

"V, Tori this isn-"

"Just get out...take everything you left here and leave...i can't do this tonight" I shook my head crying.

"Victoria please just hear me ou-"

"Hear you out? Seriously?" I scoffed, ignoring the tears trickling down my cheeks.

Derek and that girl just looked at me with sad looks on their faces.

 They felt sorry for me.

" No Derek, Get your stuff and leave before Jaden gets home" I shook my head tiredly. 

I wasn't gonna fight over something that i've experienced time and time again...fighting over it gets you nowhere. 

I grabbed my bags from the ground and made my way upstairs to my room.

I was exhausted and over the childishness.

I can't do this anymore.