Solby | Drawn To You

6 // I'll be ready.

Sams POV
Four days later.

Colby, the name was ringing in my head for hours and it hasn't faded, even for a moment.
He hasn't came home yet, he hasn't posted anything on twitter, no instagram stories, no texts, no phone calls, nothing. And although he has done this once before, it was only for a day, and it's already been four, I'm worried, extremely worried.
Corey isn't worried at all, since he's acting like an a~~hole right now, since he told me that he didn't understand why I was gay and that 'your types of people' would have sex with any moving boy I see, which is totally idiotic.
Jake is just jake, he hasn't been scared or worried, he's just his natural happy self, which is good.
Aaron is annoyed all the time now, he always makes sure I'm alright, yeah, but he's annoyed at Devyn, Buddy, his dog and even Corey, which does make sense, but I'm beginning to think he is in fact on Corey's side...

Nothing is going right for me anymore, I should have just stayed quiet... forever. It would've been so easy, so freaking simple, but instead I though it would be a good idea and let it go, I'd be free!
No, not one bit.
I feel more trapped than ever now I've came out.
...

Sam: Colby, where are you..?
Read: 4:07

Sam: I've seen you read this.. please, colby..?
Read: 4:08

Sam: I'm scared, I'm terrified, I'm worried, I'm useless fight now Colby's please.
Read 4:10

Sam: I don't have anyone anymore, it's been four days, just please.
Read: 4:10

Sam: I know you hate me, who wouldn't, I'm worthless, I've always been
Read 4:12

Sam: I hate myself, it's all my fault.. I know.. I'm sorry.
Read 4:13

Colby: nothing is your fault. nothing ever was. it was always me. I'm the useless, worthless, scared one, sam.
Read: 4:15

Sam: no, Colby, no,.. you were never that, we have all done something we regret...
Read: 4:16

Colby: I know.. I'm sorry. So sorry. I'll come home, soon.
Read: 4:34

Sam: I'm so sorry, Colby, really... but, soon, for you, means a while, you know.
Read: 7:36

Colby: soon.. it means... tomorrow, at five. Be ready. Goodbye sam.
Read: 7:38

Sam: what?? At our house, colby?
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Sam: Colby? The f#£k
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Sam: okay.., I'm sorry.. I'll be ready.

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It was the most intense wait of my life, i wanted to sleep until five o'clock, I wanted to see him again, I really don't know how I actually survived without seeing his face, in person for... four days.

I seem like a stalker, but right now, I don't care, I love him so much it's scares me to let him go...

Why did I have to love Colby, of all men, I'm I love with him.

I haven't thought about it a lot, of all the reasons I really do love him, I've just been thinking of how he wouldn't and doesn't love me..

I love his naturally clean dark hair, his sparkling, ocean teal colored eyes that glowed when he glanced in the mirror, his innocent smirk he had whenever I did something awkward, it always seemed to make me blush.. sometimes I didn't even care, I just wanted to kiss him, and I didn't, I couldn't take the pressure, but now all this stupid stuff happened, I should have just kissed him, even if I regretted it, I would have just... done it.

I've seen him without his T-shirt on basically every xplr video a while ago, I still don't understand how I controlled myself, yeah that sounds really dirty, but frankly, it was true... I swear once I couldn't hide it anymore and he saw, .. you know. It makes me cringe just thinking about it, but he probably though I was think about Kat, but oh boy, nope.
I was thinking about the one and only Cole Robert Brock!
I'm ashamed, I'm super ashamed. But it was fun...

I wonder if I don't need to be ashamed about thinking about him like that.

Or I don't need to be ashamed because he likes the idea of me think of him like that.

No.. Samuel, do not let your mind wonder into dark places again.. again.

"Again." I unexpectedly said out loud, making me flick back into reality. There stood a sweaty Corey in front of me.

"I'm sorry." He whispered before hugging me. I actually already accepted his apology before he even said sorry, because I knew he didn't mean it, but you know, it warmed my heart thinking that he cared for me, but it warmed my heart more when a 'ping' noise came from my phone, reading in my head, it said.

Colby: I feel rude for saying that, so you know, yeah, be ready at five.. but have a smile on your face, it'll make me happy. Goodbye, Sam ..
Read 7:54

Sam: . . . Typing . . .

Colby: <3
Read: 7:54

Sam: I'll be ready, <3.. bye Colby.

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AU: I hate this chapter because it's cringe but i like the idea of it, but beware.

THE NEXT CHAPTER IS GONNA BE AMAZING BUT ALSO REALLY BAD
AND THE NEXT CHAPTER AFTER THAT IS GOING TO BLOW YOUR MIND AHHAHA 👌👌👌👌