Free Will

"I'm so sorry..."

The after I return the goods and make up a story on why I have them and not the girl, I go to my brothers house, make up another story on why I need the prescription, go to the chemist to get the drugs then to her house. Dawns house. All this for her... Why? 5 minutes with her makes me want to run around and miss my training session. Maybe its the pity for her dad but I don't think so. It feels deeper. But that kind of sounds stupid now that it replays in my head.

As I reach her door I rape three times and wait until she open the door. 

"Oh its you, thank the heavens you are here... I thought you had forgotten about me and my papa."

It amazes me how she can be saying the most gloomy thing yet I feel the joy of her presence. Although it makes me want to smile I refuse to as it would be inappropriate at this moment. 

"I would never. Now let me take this medicine to him right away."

She nods obediently and opens the ancient door to her shabby granny flat. I spot her father lying on the couch, his breathing quick and shallow. When he sees me it gets worse and he is hyperventilating.

"Papa! Papa! Its okay.. Its okay. He is going to help. Papa-"

It all happened so fast. One minute 'papa' was lying on the couch the next he tried running but as he was too weak he fell and he didn't get up. Automatically I go over and pick him up and lay him back on the couch where Dawn thoroughly examines his lifeless body in silence. Then as the realisation comes she starts sobbing.

"What did you do! He was fine and he was getting better before YOU came!"

She starts forcefully shoving me towards the door. If I wasn't in this scenario right now these shoves wouldn't effect me but I was too shaken by what I had just seen to think of anything else.

"Dawn I'm-"

"I don't want to hear it! Get out and don't ever come here again!"

I was nearly at the door by now and her words had winded me, pushing me out the door and before she could slam the door I whisper.

"I'm so sorry."

Then all I saw was the ancient door.

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