We got to our apartment shortly after we left the doctors office. I got out and walked around to her side of the car and pulled her out picking her up once again and taking her inside. I set her down on the couch and went to get her a glass of water. When I can back she was cuddled up on the couch with a blanket waiting for me, so I put in 'The Notebook' and sat on the couch beside Bradleigh. She cuddled up to my chest and I put an arm around her and we watched the Notebook. Not speaking a single word not even after what had just happened. Neither of us were up to talking about it, so neither of us said anything.
About an hour or so into the movie Bradleigh fell asleep. When the movie was over I sat there in silence thinking about the events that happened earlier today. She's 18, I'm 19, it was the right thing to do right? We aren't ready for a family. Not right now. But I wonder what it would be like to have her I wonder what it would be like to hold her in my arms for the first time. To teach her how to speak, how to walk, out to ride a bike. Ill never know what it's like to have her. Would she have had my eyes? Her moms nose? I know one thing for sure. She would have been just as beautiful as her mom and I would have loved her with all my heart.
