The Theory of Something so Perfect

10 - Memories

"Let's Date" Junkai said to me with a soft voice and a warm smile.

Chapter 10

Strange. I should be happy right?

I froze for a moment and gulped. The wind blows towards us enough for me to feel the chills. What is this feeling? Why do I feel weird? I don't know what to say, I want to take a rest.

"Junkai I—" before I could finish my words, I felt my head aching.

"You don't have to answer me now, let me take you home" Junkai said and brought me to the university dorm. He took me to my bed and left painkillers on the table before he went home.

Why are these things happening all of a sudden? I really want to meet Junkai in person though but I didn't wish to be in this sort of relationship. I know I'm just a fan, I like him as a fan, I love him as a fan, nothing more than that.

And the worse things is, I don't feel the same way for him like I did before anymore

I closed my very tired eyes and the alarm rings. It's morning already yet I feel like I haven't sleep yet. When I went to the kitchen I found Jiayue and Fei laughing and talking about some stuffs I certainly don't understand.

"Morning Xinyan!" Fei greeted and handed me a plate.

"Oh Xinyan we were talking about how you decided to throw away your career for Junkai" Jiayue said.

"Really? Is it fun talking about how messed up my life is?" I said and drank a glass of water.

"I saw Junkai took you home last night. Is there something going on between you two?" she asked then hugged me from my back.

"Jiayue stop it! I'm sick of all these dating rumors with those damn idols. I want a real peaceful life" I said and went back inside my room to change into my uniform.

really sick of idols

I went back to the kitchen to grab a bread then stared at Fei.

"What?" she asked.

"We're late for anatomy class" I answered as I took a bite from the bread and walked outside the door.

"Oh shit! completely forgot about that" she said and walked faster to catch up with me.

Luck is finally on my side today since the class haven't started yet when we arrived at school. When the class ended, I told Fei that I wouldn't be joining her for lunch since I have to do something important. I went to the police to ask help in finding this Zheng Fengwei since she's really bothering me these days.

"Miss Tao Xinyan"

"That's me" I said and came forward.

"please sit miss" the police officer said and offered me a chair.

"This Zheng Fengwei you're looking for, she looks like you" the police said.

"Oh no you can't be serious" I said ỉn disbelief and chuckled.

"She's an Orphan and was adopted when she was 14. Documents said she had a sister named Zheng Meixing but they got separated in an accident. This Fengwei's current name is Yu Yaoyao." the police explained.

"Zheng Meixing?" I asked then suddenly some random voices filled my head.

Wait for me! I can't run as fast as you!

Meimei you're so slow! come on hurry!

I pressed my head as I feel it aching. What are these voices? memories? hallucinations? This is making me crazy!

"Sir I need to go. Thank you for your time" I said and hurriedly went to the bus stop. I didn't know where to go or who I can talk to, I just rode the bus and got off on its last stop. I roam around for a few minutes til I saw a bench near the riverside. I sat down and bursted into tears. Suddenly, there was an old woman who sat beside me and offered me a candy.

"A pretty girl like you shouldn't be crying over stupid men" she said while looking at the river. I looked at her and refused to take to candy.

"I'm not hungry ma'am, I'm just a little unwell" I said.

"Oh I didn't intend to give you this sweet little thing to fill your tummy but a little bit of sweetness in your body might make you feel better" she responded.

I smiled, took the candy, and ate it. Tears continue to fall from my eyes and the old woman still stayed by my side without saying anything.

"I think I have a very messy past. I don't know how to put it all together but why does every bit of my shattered memory have to come all of a sudden? I was happy to be me, I felt complete even just by myself but right I don't know what to feel"

Meixing? — A voice called from somewhere

I look at the direction of the voice and saw a rich woman coming towards me.

She looks like me

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Hello fellow clovers! I'm so sorry it took me so long to add a new part. I completely forgot about the stories I made years ago and I was surprised to see that there are still people out there who loves to read my stories when I checked my email. Thank you for inspiring me to write again!

published: July 31, 2023