Cheater Got Cheated

Tagalog Version

Hi Just call me 'Coreen' and I met this boy through social media and let's just call him 'Rozen' (Wattpad names *Heartless by Jonaxx)

Rozen is not a filipino. He's indian. We Filipinos usually say na yung mga indians mababaho, 5'6, bumbay or whatsoever. But he's different. I can tell na he's clean by just looking at his pictures. May kaya sa buhay at higit sa lahat may sense of humor. Nakilala ko siya dahil sa kaibigan kong si Jas. Troller kase yung friend ko and Rozen is a troller too. They like making fun of people. Trolling. Fighting on the internet. Etc etc. Nakita niya daw na mutual friend ako ni Jas so he added me. At first hindi ko siya inaccept dahil hindi ko naman siya kilala but later on nagmessage request siya sakin. Telling me 'I love you Coreen'. I ignored him that time but you know what I felt something different when I read his message. I Swear. Pero kahit na ganun hindi ko parin siya pinansin. Until one time nagaaway away sa bahay at sobra sobra akong nadedepress. Feeling ko wala ng taong nakakaintindi sakin. Ayoko naman magshare sa mga kaibigan ko dahil problema ko to and I have to carry it all alone. May nagmessage request sakin and that's my cousin's friend kaya inaccept ko. Tapos nakita ko ulit yung pangalan ni Rozen na hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa inaaccept. The same feeling nung nakita ko yung message niya ang naramdaman ko nung inaccept ko yung message niya. I replied 'Thank you for loving me I love myself too' and there everything happened. Nalaman ko na he's studying Mc's physics and he's not living with his parents kase nagdodorm na lang siya para malapit sa school niya. And you know what he's so sweet. I felt so safe kapag kausap ko siya through social media. I felt so lucky to have him dahil sobrang talino niya. He never fail to make me smile day by day na nakakausap ko siya. I feel so comfortable with him. I felt loved. That's why when I felt that I loved him already hindi na ako nagpaligoy ligoy pa. I told him right away and there naging kami. I still remember that time. That was March 12, 2017. I was so happy that time. Ilang buwan naging kami. I learned basic words ng hindi language. I learned more about India. I watched bollywood movies which is sobrang fan ako ngayon dahil they make amazing movies. He taught me about their religion which is hinduism. About their country. About food. Naghanap pa nga ako ng malapit na Indian Restaurant dito samin and you were so happy nung binisita ko yung place na yun. At first nga naghehesitate pakong pumasok dahil baka kaming dalawa lang nung kasama ko yung pilipino dun. But you told me to just enter the restaurant for you. And I did. I felt the warmth welcome inside. Pilipino yung mga waiter of course sobrang babait pa nila. All the walls were painted of Gods in India. Meron ding painting na nandun yung buong mapa ng India. And when I sent those pictures to you. You were so happy because finally I'm learning about things that you used to know. Tapos tawa kami ng tawa nung kasama ko because we don't understand what's written on the menu. So I asked for your help. I took a pic of the menu and sent it to you. Tinanong mo pako kung magkano ba yung budget ko dahil may kamahalan yung mga pagkain dun pero sabi ko 'just choose the best food and don't worry about the money' kahit sa totoo lang nagdadasal na ako na sana mura lang yung piliin mo dahil wala naman talaga akong masyadong perang dala. I just want to impress you because I love you so much. Buti mura lang yung pinili mo pero ang hirap kainin. Tapos tawang tawa samin yung mga tao nun kase yung 'naan' is supposed to be dip dun sa butter chicken pero ang ginawa ko I drank the soup and ate the 'naan' and when I told those things to you, you were laughing at me samantalang ako nun pahiyang pahiya ako. Hindi lang indian food ang tinry ko. I tried studying your language dahil sabi mo your mom don't understand english so I definitely have to adjust. So I did. I searched a lot of apps papano matutunan yang hindi language na yan pero sobrang hirap talaga. Naloloka ako. I also watched bollywood movies na andami kong natutunan about your traditions there in India. And everytime I watched bollywood, you were so happy. Lalo na kapag ikaw yung magsusuggest ng mga dapat kong panoorin. All the happy moments was there. All the laughs. Videocalls. Arguments. Sad times. Jealousy. Everything was there. Pero after 4 months of being together. Nanlamig kana lang bigla. Bakasyon nyo nun akala ko magiging okay ang lahat dahil okay naman tayo nung mga nakaraang buwan. Sobrang okay. Pero napansin ko everyday halos 3chats na lang yung narereceive kong text mo. Madalang na din tayong nagcacall or videocalls. Pero hinayaan ko na lang kase baka mahina lang yung connection dyan sa hometown niyo unlike sa dorm mo dati kaya madalang kana lang makapagchat. Pero napansin ko palagi kang nakaonline sa mobile legends where we used to play together pero ngayon hindi na. Everything changed. Kung nakakapaglaro ka ng mobile legends bakit hindi man lang ako makatanggap ng simpleng reply mo? Are you that busy? And when I confront you about that. Sabi mo your mom won't like the idea of you having a gf dahil she wants you to focus on your studies muna so as a girlfriend I understand. But everyday nagbabago ka. Nanlamig ka. Kasabay ng paglamig ng panahon ay ang paglamig ng ating relasyon. Lumipat ako ng tirahan. Nilagay na lang ako nila mama sa isang apartment because they can't handle me any longer. I felt so depressed that time hindi dahil sa ayaw na sa akin ng pamilya ko. Kundi dahil feeling ko ayaw mo na din sa akin. Andaming bakit na tumatakbo sa isip ko. Bakit malamig kana? Bakit madalang kana lang magchat? Bakit ganito tayo? And when I had a courage na tanungin ka that was July 30, 2017. Nagbreak down na ako nun kase sinaktan ako ni mama pumunta sila sa apartment ko galit na galit for some reason. And when they are finally gone. I tried calling you. Reaching out to you. Pero wala ka. So hinintay kitang magonline hanggang madaling araw gising pako. Hinintay kita dahil gusto ko na maliwanagan. And when I saw you online already I asked you. And you said I'm sorry that I deserve better. That we should broke up. But I cannnn'tttt. I'm begging you to stay because it's you that all I had. Ikaw na lang yung pamilya ko. Sobra sobra na akong naattached sayo so kahit pinagtatabuyan mo na ako humahawak padin ako sayo. Kase sobrang diko kayang mawala ka. Pero ayaw mo na talaga. So tinanong kita ulit 'do you love someone else?' and you said 'yes I'm sorry I'm such a cheater' Putangina oo talagang manloloko kang hayop ka. Kagaya ka lang din ng tatay ko. Magsama kayong dalawa!. Gusto kong sabihin sayo yun pero nagmamakaawa padin ako sayo. Binaba ko yung pride ko. Ginawa ko naman lahat para sayo. Ang hindi ko lang kayang gawin ay ang mapalapit sayo dahil milyong milyong kilometro ang naghihiwalay sa ating dalawa. Ayokong pakawalan ka dahil mahal na mahal kita. Pano na yung pangarap nating dalawa? Yung mga pangako mo. Naniwala ako sayo. Pero ayaw mo na talaga. Kaya wala akong nagawa kundi tanggapin. Pero kahit ilang buwan nading hindi tayo. Ikaw padin. I tried flirting. But it's always been you. Akala ko pakikipag relasyon sa kapwa indiano ang makakapagbura sa akin ng sakit na naramdaman ko sayo. Hindi pala. Nawala ang pinakaiingatan ko dahil sa pagaakalang mamahalin din nila ako. Na papakasalan nila ako. Na mahahanap kita sakanila. Hindi pala. Nagkamali ako. Lalo akong lumala. Naging lasinggera ako. Natuto akong manigarilyo. Halos araw araw naglalaslas ako. Ikaw na lang kase yung strength ko nun nawala pa. Until one time my friend Jas told me na umayos daw ako. Na kahit magpakamatay pa daw ako hindi kana babalik. They helped me to move on. About my family. And about you. I helped myself too. No boys. No alcohols. No cigarettes muna. Nakaya ko. Naging masaya ako. Nalaman ko na masaya kana pala. Sobrang saya. At ako eto? Sinusubukan ko paring bumangon mula sa pagkakahulog sayo. Narealize ko na ang panget mo pala. Na mas deserve ko ang mahalin hindi ang gaguhin. Lumipas ang madaming buwan. New year. Birthday mo. Naging magkaibigan tayo. Napatawad kita. Hanggang sa nakachat kita nung 'June 30, 2018' sabi mo everything changed when we broke up. Sabi ko oo pero tapos na ang lahat. You said 'the girl for whom I left you, left me for another boy' and I was schocked that time dahil nalaman ko break na pala kayo. Pinagpalit ka nung pinalit mo sakin. And I felt so sad for you hindi dahil sa mahal pa kita. Kundi dahil naramdaman mo yung pinaramdam mo sakin. Masakit. Sobrang sakit.

And for you my 'Rozen' I'm okay now. Until now I can't get you out of my system and I know. I never will. But I wish you will find your own 'Coreen' the one who can hold your hand. The one you can cuddle. The one who can give you a hug when you need to. The one who can understand your parents. The one who will stay by your side. The one who's there near you already. You will always be deserve the best. You will always be my 'JI'.

Thank you for reading.