Cheater Got Cheated

English Version

Note: Sorry I'm not good in english. If there are grammatical errors I'm apologizing right now.

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Hi just call me 'Coreen' and I met this boy through social media and let's just call him 'Rozen' (Wattpad names). I love reading stories so I want to share mine too. So here it goes.

'Rozen' is not a Filipino. He's indian. We filipinos usually say that indians smell bad, 5'6, bumbay or whatsoever. But he's different. I can tell that he's clean by just looking at his pictures. Capable of living and most importantly he has a sense of humor. I met him because of my friend. My friend Jas is a troller. And Rozen is a troller too. They like making fun of people, trolling, fighting on the internent etc etc. He saw me as a mutual friend of Jas but at first I didn't accept his request because I don't know him. But later on he sent a messaged request telling me 'I love you Coreen'. I ignored him that time but you know what I felt something different when I read his message. I swear. But I ignored it that time. Until one time there's a big problem in our family. And I felt so depressed. I felt like no one understand me. I don't want to share my problems with my friends because I feel like they won't understand and they won't listen to me. So I have to carry it all alone. One of my cousin's friend sent a message request to me and I accepted it. And there I saw Rozen's name so I accepted his request. The same feeling when I saw his message is the same feeling I felt when I replied "Thank you for loving me. I love myself too" and there everything happened. I found out that he's studying Mc's physics. And he's not living with his parents and has his own dorm near his school. And you know what. He's so sweet. I feel so safe whenever we talk through social media. I felt so lucky to have him because he's smart. He never fail to make me smile day by day. I feel so loved. That's why when I felt that I loved him already. I told him right away and there we are officially in a relationship. I remember that day that was March 12, 2017 and I was so happy that day. We've been together for months. I learned basic words of hindi language. I learned more about india. And I also watched bollywood movies which is I'm a super fan now because they make amazing movies. He also taught me about their religion which is hinduism. About their country. About their food where I really want to try them. So I looked for the nearest Indian Restaurant here in our place and I was so happy that there is and I told you about it and you were so happy. I went to that place with my friend and at first I'm hesitating to enter the restaurant, intimidate that there are a lot of indian customers there. But you told me to just enter the restaurant for you. So I did. I felt the warmth welcome inside. The waitress are filipinos of course. All the walls were painted of Gods in India. And there was part of the wall there where the map of india was painted there. And when I sent those pics to you, you were so happy because finally I'm learning about things you used to know. Me and my friend was laughing because we don't understand what's written on the menu so I asked for your help. I took a pic of the menu and sent it to you. You even asked me how much is my budget because some of the foods there are expensive. But I told you 'just choose the best food and don't worry about the money' but I'm really praying that time that you'll choose food that is not expensive because I don't have much money that time. I just want to impress you because I love you so much. And thank God you didn't chose food that are expensive but for the first timer like us we didn't know how to eat the food. That's why people in the restaurant laughed at us because the 'naan' is supposed to be dip in the butter chicken but I drank the soup and ate the 'naan'. And when I told those things to you, you were laughing at me while I'm so embarassed there. It is not only indian food that I tried. But I tried to learn your language because you told me your parents won't understand english so I definitely have to adjust. And I did. I searched a lot of apps to learn hindi language but it's really so hard to understand. I watched bollywood movies where I learned a lot of things about your traditions there in india. And you were so happy that time especially when you were the one who will suggest movies that I will watch. All the happy moments was there. All the laughs. Videocalls. Even sad times was there. Everything was there. But after 4 months of being together. You were so cold. Our relationship is not working anymore. But I thought the connection was just poor in your hometown that's why you rarely messaged me. But I always saw you online in mobile legends where we used to play together. If you can play and make time in mobile legends. Why can't you send me a single reply? Is it that hard? Are you that busy? And when I confront you about that. You said your mom won't like the idea of you having a girlfriend so as a girlfriend. I understand. But everyday you were so cold. The sweetness died. But I was just trying to understand you that time because maybe you just want to make time with your family. Until one time my mom just put me into an apartment because they can't handle me any longer. And I didn't tell those things to you because you were busy. I feel so depressed that time not because my family don't want me but because I feel like you don't want me anymore. Until one time my mom was so mad to me and she came to my apartment and abused me for some reason. I was so helpless that time and when they are finally gone. I wanna talk to you but you are offline so I waited until midnight. That was July 30, 2017. And when I saw you online already I had a courage to ask you and you told me I'm sorry that I deserve better. That we should broke up. But I can'tttt. I'm begging you to stay because it's you that all I had. You are the only family that I have that time. I was so attached with you that even though you are pushing me away I'm still holding on to you. Because I can't let you go. But you really wanna broke up with me. So I asked you again 'do you love someone else?' And you told me 'yes I'm sorry I'm such a cheater' motherfucker yes you are. You are just like my dad. You deserve each other. I want to say those words to you but I didn't. I put down my pride. I did everything to keep our relationship. The only thing I can't do is to be near you because there is world that are separating us. I don't want to let you go because I love you so much. What about our plans? Our dreams in the future? Your promises. I believed in you. But you really don't wanna make things work so I didn't had a choice. So I let you go...But even though months passed by. It's always been you. I tried flirting but it didn't work. I thought being in a relationship with an indian here is the solution so that I can finally forget you but I was wrong. I was abused. I lost my purity. Because I thought I can make things work with them but they didn't. I failed for the second time. I was so depressed that time. I was so crazy that I always drank alcohol. Smoke. And every single day there are deep scars in my hand. Until one time my friend Jas told me that I should move on. She told me that even though I'll waste my life here you will never going back. So I tried to move on. I tried to be happy. And it worked. I realize that there are a lot of things to put first. I realized that I should not feeling this way. I saw that you are so happy. And me? I'm still stuck here but I'm trying. A lot of months has passed by. New year. Your birthday. We've been friends. I forgave you. Until June 30, 2018. We talked and you told me everything changed when we broke up. But I told you it's all fine now. You said 'the girl for whom I left you. Left me for another boy' and I was shocked that time because I found out that you two broke up. I felt so sad for you not because I still love you. But because you felt what you did to me. It hurts. So bad.

And for you my 'Rozen' I'm okay now. Until now I can't get you out of my system and I know. I never will. But I wish you will find your own 'Coreen' the one who can hold your hand. The one you can cuddle. The one who can give you a hug when you need to. The one who can understand your parents. The one who will stay by your side. The one who's there near you already. You will always be deserve the best.

Thank you for reading.