You Don't Understand Me

Chapter 7: Mistakes

3rd POV.
It is now Thursday and Namjoon is supposed to coming over after school. You're at lunch right now with your friends, just talking and messing around.
YOUR POV.
Jae: Hey! Its not funny!
We were all laughing due to Jae talking about his fear of bikes.
Moe: He's right, its not funny.
She had stopped laughing and we all looked at her.
Jae: See! At least-
Moe: Its hilarious!
She started laughing again and we followed her actions except for Jae. Yugyeom and I had already calmed down from laughing when Monique and Jae started arguing.
Jae: Seriously?
Moe: Yep.
She laughed more.
Jae: You don't see me laughing at the fact that you still sleep with a kumamon plushie!
Monique immediately stopped laughing and had this look of 'Seriously?' in them.
Moe: I told you not to say that!
Jae: Whoops, sorry.
He said sarcastically.
I leaned over to Yugyeom and whispered.
Y/n: They would be cute together, right?
YG: Oh yeah, definitely.
We chuckled and watched them argue until I said something.
Y/n: If you both don't stop right now, you're not getting any of the brownies I'm making tomorrow.
They stopped the moment you said brownies.
Moe: Okay we'll stop.
They sat straight, facing me and Yugyeom.
YG: Finally.
He sighed and leaned back in his chair. I chuckled at his reaction.
Moe: Y/n, what are you doing after school?
Y/n: I have another project with Namjoon.
Jae: Again?
Y/n: Yeah, the teacher said it was with the partner we had last time.
Moe: Where are doing it?
Y/n: My house.
Yugyeom started coughing like crazy, as if he had just choked on something.
Jae: You okay man?
Jae asked worried. Yugyeom nodded and took a drink of his water.
YG: Did you say you're house?
I looked at him and nodded.
Y/n: Yeah.
Moe: And you're not worried about being alone with him?
Y/n: No. I can handle myself.
Jae: Oh, can you now?
Y/n: Have you seen these muscles? Of course I can.
I said as I lifted up both my arms and flexed the muscle that wasn't there. They bursted out laughing as I joined them.
*RING* *RING*
Y/n: I'll see you guys later.
I grabbed my stuff and got up.
Moe: Bye Y/n!
I waved as walked to my next class.
TIME SKIP
School just ended and Namjoon is going to be at your house around 4pm. I checked the time on my phone.
Y/n: Okay, its 2:30. I have enough time to go to the store and clean up a bit at the house.
I got in my car and drove to the store. I got there and went inside, grabbing a cart as well.
Y/n: Where's my list....got it!
I got the list of groceries from my bag and started to get everything that I needed.
TIME SKIP
I paid for everything and put the groceries in the car. I then got in the drivers seat and drove home. I got home and bought everything inside and put everything away. I checked the time again. 3:30pm.
Y/n: Crap!
I started to clean up as fast as I could. Even though the house was already clean, there were a few things that needed cleaning.
TIME SKIP
Y/n: Done!
Just as I had finished cleaning when the door bell rang.
Y/n: Coming!!
I rushed to the door and opened it.
Y/n: Hey.
Joon: Hey.
Y/n: Come in.
I opened the door and he came in.
Joon: Thanks.
Y/n: I'll go get some drinks, make yourself at home.
After I said that, I walked to the kitchen and got some drinks. I went back to the living room and sat next to Namjoon on the couch.
Y/n: Let's start, shall we?
I said as I got out the books needed, he did the same. We started working on the project while talking.
TIME SKIP
Its been a while since we talked, so I decided to break the silence.
Y/n: Joon?
No response. I got up and looked at him. He was turned to the side, so I couldn't see what he was doing. I walked over to him and noticed he was sleeping.
Y/n: Really?
I got closer to check if he was really asleep. I slightly poked his cheek.
Thoughts: Yep. He's asleep. Should I wake him up? He looks really tired.
I found myself looking at his features. From the shape of his eyes and button nose, to his lips.
Thoughts: He looks adorable.
I realized what I said.
Thoughts: What? Yah, snap out of it
Y/n.
My stomach growled.
Thoughts: Its just because you haven't eaten anything today.
I got up and walked to the kitchen to make dinner. I got everything I needed out and started cooking. After a few minutes I was so focused on what I was doing, that I didn't notice Namjoon watching me.
Joon: What are you doing?
I jumped at the sudden voice and turned around. He was standing right there and I looked up to him since he was much taller than me.
Y/n: I'm making dinner.
I realuzed how close we were and backed up.
Joon: What time is it?
I looked at the clock.
Y/n: Just barely 6pm.
Joon: Why didn't you wake me up? Ugh, I was supposed to meet up with the guys...nevermind, they're not important.
Y/n: You looked like you could use the sleep to me.
He moved back a bit and leaned on the counter.
Joon: What about the project?
Y/n: I've already gotten half of it done.
Joon: Really? I'm sorry-
Y/n: Its fine, don't worry about it.
I chuckled and turned about around.
Joon: What are you making?
Y/n: Ramen. I can make some for you if you want?
Joon: Sure. Can I help you with anything?
Y/n: Yeah.
We started making the ramen together. When it was done, I put it in bowls and we sat at the table and started eating while talking.
NAMJOON POV.
I looked at Y/n as she ate. She looked so cute. Over the past weeks I have been getting these feeling whenever I'm with Y/n. I thought it was nothing but now I'm sure. I like Y/n.
Thoughts: Like she would me back. She doesn't want me. I'm not good for her.
I started to zone out.
YOUR POV.
After a while, Namjoon was just looking into space, in his own world.
Y/n: What are you thinking about?
He looked up at me and I got up to put my dish in the sink and wash it.
Joon: Ah, nothing.
He got up as well.
I got to the sink and started washing my bowl. When I was done, I dried my hands and turned around. I didn't know Namjoon was behind me and I bumped into him.
Y/n: Oh, sorry.
I back up and my back hit the edge of the counter and I put my hands on it, gripping it. He got closer to me.
Thoughts: What is he doing?
I was internally freaking out but kept a calm look on my face. He didn't say anything and leaned toward me putting his dish in the sink. I mentally sighed.
Thoughts: Jesus Y/n! What did you think was gonna happen? That he was gonna kiss me?
He stayed there and looked at me. It looked like he had to say something.
Y/n: What?
He opened his mouth slightly to say something, but it looked like he was having a battle with himself.
Joon: I'm sorry.
Y/n: W-What?
Joon: I'm sorry, for everything. I regret bullying you all those years.
I was shocked by his words. I couldn't say anything. I just stood there, frozen.
Joon: And I don't know why people say you're ugly, you're not. You're the prettiest girl I've seen.
He leaned closer again. This time, his lips meeting mine. My eyes grew wide. This didn't feel right. I pushed him away.
Y/n: Leave.
I walked out of the kitchen into the living room, him following.
Joon: Y/n-
Y/n: Just...
I took a breath and grabbed his jacket, shoving it into his arms.
Y/n: Just, please leave.
He took his jacket and I opened the door.
Joon: Fine, this was a mistake anyways. He walked out, but turned to me again.
Joon: Everything I said, I didn't mean any of it.
He walked away, getting in his car then driving away. I shut the door and slid down it, hugging my knees.
Thoughts: What just happened.
I called Monique to come over.
TIME SKIP
Moe: HE WHAT?!?!
She yelled.
Moe: Why did he kiss you?!
Y/n: I don't know.
She sat down.
Moe: Does he like you?
I just shrugged.
Moe: Do you like him?
Y/n: No. Yes. I don't know!
I held my face in my hands.
Moe: You do, don't you?
Y/n: I don't know. I mean, I pushed him away...
Moe: Why?
Y/n: Because it didn't feel right to me.
Moe: It didn't feel right, or or you didn't want it to feel right?
I looked at her.
Y/n: What?
Moe: You said that it didn't feel right to you.
Y/n: Yeah.
Moe: What if...you didn't want it to feel right?
I just looked at her thinking about what she had just said.
Thoughts: Maybe she's right?
Y/n: Ugh! I don't know!
I stood up and ran my hands through my hair.
Moe: Calm down. And just a side note...
I looked at her.
Moe: You aren't ugly. That fact that he said that he didn't mean any of it is B.S.
I chuckled. She always knows how to make me feel better. Suddenly, I heard the door open.
Mom: Y/n-ah! I'm home!
I got and went to hug my mom when I saw my dad standing behind her.
Y/n: Dad...
Dad: Hey Y/n.
He started walking over to me. But he was stumbling, as if he had been drinking again. He was a few feet away from me and I could already smell the alcohol. He hugged me and I just stood there.
Dad: I missed you.
Finally, he let go and saw Monique.
Dad: Who's this?
Y/n: T-This is Monique. My best friend.
Dad: Well, its nice to meet you Monique.
Moe: Please, call me Moe.
Mom: Come on dear. Let's get you to bed, you've had a long flight.
Dad: Okay.
My mom helped him into their bedroom and I went to Monique.
Y/n: You need to leave.
Moe: What? Why?
Y/n: I'll explain later, just please.
Moe: Y/n-
Y/n: Please.
She looked at me worried but agreed and she left. I closed the door behind her and let out a sigh. I cleaned up and went to sleep to get up for school tomorrow.