You Don't Understand Me

Chapter 11: Coping

3RD POV.
Today is the day. The day you have to say goodbye to your mother, for the last time. You admit, it hurts. It hurts like someone is ripping out your heart, but 10 times worse. You've made sure everything is perfect, you didn't want a single thing to be wrong. Its your mother after all, she deserves the best. You're at the funeral and your friends are there, even Namjoon and the boys. Your dad however, isn't there. To be honest, you didn't want him to be. You couldn't even look at him right now.
YOUR POV.
(P means preacher/priest.)
P: We have gathered here today to set Mrs. Hwang Yoon-ah to rest as she goes off to be in a better place.
I tried to hold back my tears as they slowly gathered in my eyes. The preacher continued speaking as I just looked at my mothers casket.
P: Miss Y/n?
I looked up.
P: Would you like to say anything?
I nodded and stepped forward as I felt Monique grab my hand.
Y/n: My mother wasn't just any other women who loved her child, she was more than that. She had been there when no one else was, to talk to, to laugh with...
I took a pause to compose myself.
Y/n:...Not only was she my mother, but she was my best friend, my role model, my superhero.
I stepped back and wiped some tears that were threatening to fall with a tissue.
P: Thank you, Y/n.
He continued with the service and then came the time to finally put her in her resting place. The tears that had been building up had finally fallen as I watched them lower her body in the ground, my breath becoming uneven. I felt someone hug me and I looked to my right and it was Taehyung. He didn't say anything as he wrapped his arms around me. I did the same as I buried my face in his shirt and silently cried. The service ended and we all went home. Monique took me to my house.
Moe: Do you want me to stay?
Y/n: No, I just want to be alone right now.
Moe: Okay, call me if you need anything.
She said as she hugged me.
Y/n: I will.
We let go and I got out of the car and went inside. I shut the door behind me and slowly turned around to be faced with a silent, empty house. I looked around and went upstairs to my room. I decided to take a shower. I got in the bathroom and undressed. I turned on the water and looked at myself in the mirror as it started to fog up. Who I saw was broken and torn apart. I got in the shower.
TIME SKIP.
Its been a week and I'm still in bed, starring into space. I haven't been out of the house, I've barely eaten anything, and I haven't responded to anyone if they tried to text or call me so much that I just left the door unlocked so they could just come in to check on me. I heard the door open and close. I sighed knowing it was one of them. I heard a knock at my bedroom door.
Y/n: Come in.
The door opened and it was everyone.
Y/n: What are you guys doing here?
I asked as I sat up in bed.
Jae: Well, we wanted to try to cheer you up.
I just looked at him.
Jin: And make you food.
Y/n: I'm not hungry.
Jimin: Come on, not even for Jin hyung's food?
I shook my head.
Y/n: I just want to stay here.
I noticed Namjoon just sitting there, watching them as they tried to convince me to get out of the house.
Y/n: Guys, I'm just not in the mood okay?
Kook: Well, since you won't get out of the house, we'll just bring something to you.
Everyone looked at him with curiosity as he continued to speak.
Kook: Make it simple. A movie night with snack, blankets, and pillows. Everyone then looked at me as I thought about it.
Y/n: Okay.
I thought maybe it wouldn't be so bad.
Hoseok: Yay! What movie shall we watch?
Y/n: I don't care.
Yoongi: How about 'Ratatouille'?
Everyone, including myself, looked at him confused.
Yoongi: What? Its a good movie.
Everyone started laughing, even I let out a small laugh.
Y/n: Sounds great Yoongi.
Moe: Okay, Jae, Jungkook, Jin, Hoseok, and I will go get snacks, Yugyeom, Yoongi, Jimin, and Namjoon got get the movie. Tae you stay with Y/n.
Kook: Why can't I stay with noona?
He whined like a little kid.
Moe: Because I said so.
I could see Namjoon look a little irritated at Monique's words which confused me a little bit. I just shrugged it off and said bye as they went to go do what they needed to do and Taehyung doing himself on my bed next to me. We heard the door open and close.
Tae: They're gone.
Y/n: I know.
I let myself fall back on the bed and pull the covers over me until they barely reached my nose and stared up at the ceiling.
Tae: I have a question.
Y/n: Shoot.
Tae: Do you like Namjoon hyung?
I thought for a second.
Y/n: Why?
Tae: I can see the way you guys act around each other.
I furrowed my eyebrows a little bit.
Y/n: What do you mean?
Tae: He smiles more, he's protective...heck he even let you sleep at his house...
I stayed silent, waiting for him to continue.
Tae: He's like this with us but only with a girl once.
I then looked at him.
Y/n: With who?
Tae: His ex.
Y/n: What happened?
Just as he was about to say something, the front door opened followed by some laughter and talking. He sat up and looked at me.
Tae: That's for him to tell you.
He then got up and walked downstairs where everyone was. I laid there for a minute thinking until I heard Jungkook yell my name.
Kook: Noona!! Come down here or I'll come up there and bring you down myself!!!
Y/n: I'm coming, I'm coming!!!
I got up and took my favorite fluffy blanket with me along with my phone. I walked down the stairs and saw everyone sitting down on the couch and some on the floor laying down.
Jimin: Y/n! I saved a spot for you.
He pasted the spot between him and Namjoon. I walked over and sat between them.
YG: Alright, let's start this movie.
He said as he started the movie and turned off the lights. A few minutes into the movie I felt Jimin judge my arm. I looked over at him.
Y/n: What?
I whispered.
Jimin: You okay?
Y/n: Yeah.
I said as I sighed and we went back to watching the movie.
TIME SKIP.
I started to feel sleepy half way into the movie. My eyelids were trying to close, but I wouldn't let them. I guess Jimin noticed as he looked at me.
Jimin: Are you tired?
I shook my head but my face was saying otherwise. I heard him chuckle lightly.
Jimin: You can lean on my shoulder if you want, I don't mind.
I gave him a small small smile.
Y/n: Thanks.
I leaned my head on his shoulder and moved a bit to get more comfortable. After a few minutes, I fell asleep.
TIME SKIP NAMJOON POV.
The movie just ended, but I wasn't really paying attention to it. I kept thinking about Y/n. Ever since her mom died, she's locking herself in her room. Yes, we checked on her, but we would have to come inside to do so. I noticed that she wouldn't really eat anything or talk to anyone. I was really worried but I decided to just let her be. "Maybe its her way of coping," I thought to myself. I looked over at her to see her leaning her head on Jimin's shoulder. I felt a little jealous even though I shouldn't, we aren't even dating. Everyone started getting up and slowly noticing Y/n was asleep.
Moe: Well, that didn't last very long.
She said as she put her hands on her hips.
Moe: I guess we should get her to bed.
Jimin: I'll take her.
He said as he tried to pick her up, but from where he was sitting he couldn't.
Joon: I'll take her, you guys go.
Jimin: Are you sure? We can wait for you.
Joon: Its okay, I drove my car anyways.
I got up and picked Y/n up, being careful not to wake her.
Yoongi: Okay, we'll see you later man.
I nodded and made my way upstairs to Y/n's room. I heard them all leave as I opened the door to her room. I walked over to her bed and carefully put her down, covering her with the covers of her bed. She moved a little in her bed, making herself as small as possible and pulling on the covers until only her head was popping out.
Cute.
I thought. I stood there for a few minutes looking at her. She was so cute.
Thoughts: She remindas me a lot of.....Yah, stop. Don't think about her.
I shook my head and started walking towards the door. I turned off the lights and looked back at her.
Joon: Goodnight, Y/n.
I shut the door and went back downstairs and grabbed my keys. I went out the front door and got in my car and drove home.
End chapter 11, chapter 12 coming soon!