The Most Painful Decision
"Flowers and chocolates from the same guy again? Give him a chance, Ylleinica." Janel commented. Hindi tuloy maiwasan na magtinginan yung ibang estudyante sa akin dahil sa hawak kong bulaklak.
Everyday, Adrian never failed to give me this. He's been courting me for almost a month. Hindi ko s'ya sinasagot kasi natatakot ako na baka hindi s'ya seryoso. Someone told me that Adrian's longest relationship only lasted for three months. Janel told me that he saw the sincerity in Adrian's eyes because of his effort just to make me happy. It's the first time that he did that, according to her.
Hindi ko tuloy alam kung sino ang papaniwalaan ko.
"I don't know, Janel. Natatakot talaga ako," sambit ko. Adrian is a top of the class. Member din s'ya ng varsity.
Nahagip naman ng mga mata ko si Adrian. The ray of the sunlight highlights the dimples on his cheeks. That was his best asset for me. Nasa kanya na lahat pero ewan ko ba, natatakot talaga akong magbigay ng tiwala.
"Akong bahala kapag sinaktan ka n'ya. I'll go now, Nica. Nand'yan na pala sya, e." sabay turo n'ya sa nakapamulsang si Adrian papalapit sa direksyon namin. Mabilis na nawala si Janel sa harap ko. Namalayan ko na lang na nasa harap ko na si Adrian.
"How's your day, Nica?" he asked.
"M-maayos naman." nakita kong bumaba ang tingin n'ya sa bulaklak na hawak hawak ko.
"Do you like it?" I simply nodded at his question.
Adrian is very studious. He offered himself to be my personal tutor in mathematics. He's from section A. Magkatabi lang iyong room namin kaya't tuwing break ay napupuntahan ako nito.
"You're very lucky, Nica. Bakit kasi hindi mo pa sagutin?" tukso sa akin ng mga kaklase ko. I saw Adrian standing at the door.
"Excuse daw kay Nica." sigaw ni Thea kaya't nagtilian yung mga kaklase kong babae.
I don't understand myself. Whenever he's near, I can't stop my heart from beating too fast. Everytime that I saw him, my days went perfect. Corny mang sabihin pero ganito pala yata ang pakiramdam kapag unti unti ka ng nahuhulog sa isang taong palagi mong nakakasama.
"I'm just an average type of girl if you're going to compare me to anyone. Hindi din ako gan'on katalino. I'm not rich. I told you that I don't have my parents right?" nakita kong sumilay ang ngiti sa labi n'ya.
"Everything doesn't matter as long as I love you, Ylleinica. I don't care about any other girls. I only care for you. So please, give me a chance?" tumayo kaming dalawa. Hinapit n'ya yung bewang ko papalapit sa kanya at pagkatapos ay hinalikan ako nito sa noo.
"What if you cheat? What if you find someone better than me?"
"I maybe an asshole for breaking so many hearts before but after I met you, gusto kong itama lahat ng pagkakamaling nagawa ko. Nica, starting from today, I'll prove you that I am worth giving a chance. I'll be a man for you. I will do everything in all the seconds, minutes, hours and days that we're together. Nica, please be my girlfriend."
I decided not to be afraid to take the risk. On the 27th day of February, sinagot ko si Adrian. At hindi ako nagkamali sa naging desisyon ko. He introduced me to his family. His parents treated me like their own. Nung 15 years old kasi ako ay namatay si nanay Mila na s'yang kumupkop at nagpalaki sa akin. I am living on my own in my apartment. I am also a working student. I wasn't given a chance to meet my parents dahil sanggol pa lang ako ng iniwanan nila sa simbahan. Living alone is really hard. Pero kahit gan'on pa man, kahit naranasan ko yung hirap at sakit dahil ni hindi ko man lang nakilala yung parents ko, masaya pa din ako. Adrian was there. He made me feel na walang kulang sa'kin. I am really lucky having him as my boyfriend.
