Today's Assignment (Stony Highschool AU)

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Tony's POV
The walls constantly feel like they are drawing ever closer. The door seems to be running away. The light is being sucked out of the room. Then I realise that none of that is happening and it is all in my head. I see their faces burning into my mind. Clint. Thor. Pietro. And a few others. What they did to me was unspeakable. Unthinkable even. All of this over a rumour. I feel sick when I think of what happened. My insides physically hurt. I'm not as strong as I once thought I was. But I need to move past this. I don't want to think about it no more. I want it to be over.

The door opens. It's Steve. He's returned from school and is carrying a few books and work sheets. It is a good job that I am smart, because some of this stuff I might have needed to go to a teacher for help with had I had normal intellect. Steve looked at me. The food he had brought me earlier was barely touched. I felt too sick to touch it. He let out a sigh and kissed my head.

"Tony. I know it hurts, but you have to eat okay." Steve said softly. I shook my head quickly and opened one of the books. I needed to take my mind off the mess. Off the tragedy. I hated myself. The way that it happened. My body enjoyed it even though my mind was yelling no. How could my body betray me like that?

"Steve. Can we have sex?" I asked. My voice quiet. I don't know why I asked that. I just thought that if me and him did it, I would be cleansed of all the shit which happened.

"Are you sure, Tony? Is it not a bit too soon after... And.. You sure you want to rush into it?"

"If I don't do it now. I don't think I'll be able to bounce back mentally." I said honestly. Its true. If I don't get my mind off what happened then that is going to be stuck in my head forever. I never even asked if Steve was ready for this. I'm pretty sure he's a virgin.

" Well okay. I'll do anything to help you."

"We'll do it however you want to though. I'm not stating how this must be done." I look away kind of shy. Steve leaned over me on the bed and kissed me.

"You can stop me at any time."