I'm Sorry // 5sos sister

22. Regret and Waking Up

"Ok guys.  I have the perfect idea for what to do today, so get up and get dressed."  I said as I stood in front of Sam and Brenna who were sitting on the couch in front of me.  I grabbed their hands and pulled them up off the couch.  "Now go get your butts dressed.  Make sure you will be warm too." 

I waited for them to get dressed as I played with the fray on my black skinny jeans.  Brenna and Sam came back down dressed with gloves and beanies.  I grabbed my skates from my bag and led the way to the front door.  We walked down the street to the familiar place that I considered my second home.  We walked into the ice rink and I went up to the counter to pay for the three of us.  

Brenna and Sam went to get their rental skates.  We all sat down at a table near the entrance and started putting our skates on.  I tied Brenna and Sam's skates and we headed towards the cold ice.  I stepped onto it and immediately felt right at home.  I grabbed both of their hands and surprisingly they could both stand and skate a tiny bit.  I showed them how to push off on the ice to gain speed.

"You make this look like the easiest thing ever!" Brenna said as we skated around the rink, me facing backwards and her and Sam facing towards me.  We skated around for about an hour before we got tired and decided to head back to Brenna's.  

"That was so much fun I'm definitely playing ice hockey in the future." Sam said as we continued down the street.  Brenna said she wanted to play too.  I asked if their were any hockey teams around and they said there was a team that played out of that ice rink.  I would definitely have to get the information and join.

We got back to Brenna's and went up to her room to grab a change of clothes since skinny jeans weren't the most comfortable thing to sit around in.  I grabbed a pair of leggings and a shirt that I think is Mikey's from my suitcase.  I threw it over my head and I went back downstairs seeing that Brenna and Sam had already changed into somewhat similiar clothes to what I was wearing.

"Hey guys I have a question."  I said as I turned around to face them on the couch.  They both looked at me so I continued. "I kind of want to forgive Calum but I also don't because he broke my heart, but I mean, we weren't even technnically boyfriend and girlfriend. I mean so he wasn't cheating and I mean I should be able to forgive him but I don't know what to do." I finally stopped after rambling on. I looked at Bren and Sam and they were deep in thought.

"What he did was wrong Jess.  Didn't he say he liked you? I mean he shouldn't be with other girls if he likes you." Sam said.  I nodded my head and told her that he did. She then told me that I should just stay away from him awhile and give him time to think about what he did.  Brenna agreed with Sam and I concluded that they were right.  What he did to me was wrong and I don't think I can forgive him that easily.

"I'm going to bed guys.  I will talk to you tomorrow."  I said as I stood up and stretched me arms above my head.  I walked up to Brenna's room and layed down on my blankets.  I curled myself up and snuggled my head into one of my pillows.

"Calum why would you do this to me?"  I screamed as I looked at Calum who was standing across from me.  

"I don't like you! I never did! Why would I like some piece of garbage like you when there are millions of gorgeous girls out there?!" Calum shouted back at me.

I broke into tears as I curled up on the floor.  That's when I saw his fist coming towards me...

I woke up in tears and I couldn't breathe.  It was just a dream but it felt so real. It couldn't be true.  Calum would never say anything like that about me.... Would he?

**** THIS CHAPTER IS FOR MY FRIEND SAM WHO I FACE TIMED WHILE SHE READ IT AND FREAKED OUT ****