Little Do You Know

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“I don't wanna talk about It I don't wanna think about it I'm just feeling low, feeling low
Even when you're next to me It's not the way I’m picturing I'm just feeling low, feeling low”

Chaeyoung woke up to the feeling of soft hands playing with her hair. Fingertips gently brushed against her scalp softly scratching here and softly stroking there. As she gently opened her eyes she realized that she was sleeping on Jennie Kim’s shoulder while they sat comfortably on the couch doing their daily routine of old Disney movie marathons. Jennie was so engrossed in ‘the sleeping beauty’ that she didn’t even realize Rosé was awake. Or maybe it was because almost as soon as she woke up Chaeyoung zoned out to the traffic in her mind.

2016

‘It’s a big day’ Chaeyoung or Rosé rather said to herself as she looked in the mirror one last time before their debut showcase ‘this is it. Years or training and I have finally made it’ she smiled tearing up thinking back to how all the hardships had finally paid off. Once I’m out on the stage my life will never be the same again’  she turned around and looked at her members all rubbing their palms in nervousness and getting ready.

‘Lisa-yah I could never have asked for a better best friend. I’m so glad we are in this together. Hope we can create just as beautiful memories together in the future as we have in the past’ she thought to herself as she looked at Lisa.

‘Jisoo unnie. You are the best. You always know how to cheer me up. You are always there to make me feel loved when I am lonely. You are always there to make me see my worth when I feel worthless. You gave me strength when I was on the verge of quitting. You are a visual goddess on the outside but even more beautiful on the inside. I don’t how I could have done this without you. Thank you for being the source of all our strengths’ she thought looking at Jisoo who noticed her and smiled a comforting smile as she always did before their evaluations. Then finally her eyes darted to Jennie who was looking breathtakingly beautiful that day. Chaeyoung found it hard to take here eyes off the older girl.

‘Jennie Unnie. I don’t know what else to say except that I am sorry. I am sorry I stayed locked in my room when you asked me to spend time with you. I am sorry I kept pushing you away. I’m sorry that we are distant today. It is my fault. I couldn’t control my feelings. But today as we begin a new life I hope we can have a new beginning too. It won’t be the same but I hope you know it is for our best. I don’t know if I can ever stop feeling for you the way I feel but I have to hide it deep within me. Forever. For us’

“Hey there sleeping beauty” Jennie’s voice bought Chaeyoung back to the present.

“Uh Unnie. I’m sorry I didn’t realize I fell asleep”

“You must be really tired from our trip up the hill earlier” Jennie chuckled “You were in such a deep sleep I thought I would have to give you the kiss of life to wake you up like the Prince did to Aurora” she said referring the movie that had just ended.

This turned Chaeyoung into a nervous blushing mess “What? I’m just joking don’t look so scared” Jennie wrapped her arm around Chaeyoung’s shoulder as she scrolled through her phone and came across photos of Jisoo and Lisa at the rooftop bar in Thailand that they had just visited.

Meanwhile sleepy Rosé, despite the awkward moment a minute ago hesitantly cuddled closer to her Eonnie. Jennie’s warmth really comforted her, but there was something about her scent. It was sweet and comforting. It made Chaeyoung feel at home.

“Chaeyoungie” Jennie said studying the photos of their members “I was wondering if tomorrow you would like to go to the new rooftop hotel in town, for brunch. I remember Seungri oppa saying it’s good. I’ve been meaning to go there ever since”