The Horrifying Truth

My Mixed Emotions

Suffering

Did you enjoy my pain?
Was it fun to watch me fall?
You were the reason I became this way
Everyday, my life is tormented
By people like you...
Dreams felt fake
Nightmares became a reality
Do you feel nothing?
After seeing me cry...
Did that make you smile?
Did something finally make you laugh?

Did you even think
That your actions wouldn't affect others?
When I trusted you, you plotted to kill me
You told me you cared about me
Unfortunately it was all a lie
Why did I ever trust those sweet lies?
Why did I look at that admiring smile?
What made me think you were everything
To me.. To my family..
To my useless heart..
Was this your plan?
To destroy my soul?
What was your purpose for making me..
Suffer so horribly like this
I feel so damn useless
In this dark abyss you created for Me
As years go by, it grows bigger and stronger
Why did you do this to me?

Anger

You're so hopeless
You will never see
All this anger built up inside of me
I hated life. I still do.
I wanted you out of my sight
You didn't care anyway
You would just scream and never notice
Those tears of sorrow running down
My soft little cheeks

I felt so alone
Thought I didn't need anyone
Turns out I just needed a fucking life
I don't need you, I'll do just fine
Without a damn lowlife like you
Begging for forgiveness
Begging for your family back
I don't need your blessings
Or your cash
Without your help I'll make a run for it
I'll land on my feet as always
So I don't need You
And I'm sure you don't need Me
I'm happier than ever
So thanks for leaving.