The Horrifying Truth

I Lost Control

I Lost Control

As my eyes are closed
Holding onto what I call memories
And unforgettable hatred
I sleep alone in this room
So quiet but so lonely

I can't ever explain how I feel
My tears like blood run down
My pale cheeks
If I let go of this pain
I'll be a happy boy again

Death is near
I can feel it in my heart
A sharp pain will slowly flow
Along the lines of the innocence
I can't run
I can't seek help
Not in this darkness
That I hide behind
I'm letting go of the memories
That made me happy
Finally choosing the darkness
Over that one precious family
I've lost control of myself

You beat me to the finish line
I will try to get better
I'm crying my heart out
To the man who wins all
You led me to a place
Where I only see death

Death is like a game
Just waiting to be played
Feeling weak in my arms
As I sit here all alone
Wondering if they'll come back for me
I stayed here long enough
Though I begin to fade into nothing
All alone I lie here
Leaving this dreadful place
That we call Earth
Our Home