a family, built on lies
the mountain has grown so big
our house is settled on top of it
but everyone is buried underneath
no one can dig us out
i don't think we will survive this one
the lies hold us at a standstill
but we all know who's really winning
our mouths
taped shut
saying promises
with our fingers
crossed behind our back
deranged behavior
angry words
feet stomping
happy smile
of course you're fine
you're not fine
this is not fine
your behavior is not fine
none of our behavior is fine
not even hellos
nice to meet you
because we all already know
who you are
who you really are
yes
please
laugh at me
laughing at myself
trying to make fun
of these
earth shattering
circumstances
when i can't
tell the difference
between
i love you
And
i hate you
between you're my world
and
you're easy for me to use
your self pity is better spent on me
you're my shrink
because of course i'll listen
of course i'll try to help
or at least that's what i think-
that's what i thought
now all i think of
are tumors
and money
and bills
and jobs
and if you're bringing
someone new tonight
and if you're even coming home
at all tonight
everything and anything
but absolutely nothing
i don't want to be alone with her
i don't want to be alone with you
i don't want to be here
i can't be here anymore
it hurts too much
everyone's hurting me too much
i don't have anywhere else to go
under everyone's
mound of lies, tears, and pain
i wish somewhere
i'll finally feel safe
but then again
i come from a house
on top of a hill
YOU ARE READING
Shit poems, by a shit person
Poetry~~~~~ Some of these poems are old, some are new. Trigger warning for some of them. ~~~~ Poems labeled with "x, xx, "etc. is just because I have no idea what to name them. Deal with it. ~~~~~ I use this to cope/ express how I'm feeling and stuff
