That was my first time. I never thought I would be addicted to something like that.
A few moments earlier
I had bread and butter for breakfast. I grabbed my bag and went to school. I sat in my chair waiting for the day to be over.
RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRIIIIIIINNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGG...............
The lunch bell rang. Everyone ran outside the door. I waited for everyone to leave. But my bad luck some stayed back with their friends from some other class. I opened my lunch box and saw the chocolate fudge. One of them saw that and came to me and asked "Umm... no offense but are you really gonna eat that? I mean for someone like you, that is way too much fat".
I stared at my box. I took it and ran went out. One of my classmates saw me and asked "Hey, Do you wanna come with us? we can go to the field to play" I looked at my box and nodded at them.
I thought of throwing it, but I had to eat it.
After the break, I ran to the washroom, shut the door behind me and checked if there was anyone. I put three fingers in my mouth and forced myself to purge. After the first few times, I threw up everything I had that day.
I washed my mouth, took a mint and went back to class.
This then became a craving; To become the perfect thin girl. Being thin meant everything to a girl like me in high school.
I had forced myself to purge every day at school. I skipped breakfast at times and skipped dinner by sleeping in early.
I worked out every day, for 3 hours straight. If anyone in school asked I told them it was a liquid diet. I was not lying. The only liquid or food I was taking was water. So it was partially true.
Little did I know I was suffering from eating disorders like anorexia and bulimia...
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