Y/n's P.O.V
"Y/n!!!" A voice yelled at my ear causing me to jump out of my bed. "Seriously?! Did you not read the 'Please do not disturb me because I was asleep' sign on my door?" I replied in an annoying tone.
"I read it. But this news can't wait. When I received this letter I immediately went here and thought of saying it to you before to my parents" he reasoned. What could Xinchun run here for if it was just a letter?
"What's inside it? Is it a ticket trip for 2 at South Korea? Or a letter from your teacher saying you failed on your studies?" I said as I closed my eyes as I climbed to my bed.
"Here. Read it to yourself" he hand me the letter.
'Congratulations on your audition on YueHua Ent. Mr. Huang Xinchun. You passed the audition and can become a trainee at YueHua ent.'
"Oh. Wow. Congrats you little Minion. Now go home because I need my sleep" I hand his letter back and prepare myself to fall asleep. But I guess luck wasn't on my side. "Can I sleep here?"
"Suite yourself Xinchun" he went up to my side. There's no malice if we sleep like this. We were friends since the beginning of our lives. He hug me before he fell asleep. Typical Xinchun. But who will comfort me once you're gone? I guess this minion stuff toy you gave me will be my only companion once you're away. I cleared all my thoughts and dissappeared in darkness because of sleep.
I woke up because of a snore beside me. I looked at the person and saw Xinchun. Ugh. Why is this minion still here? I shook him to make him wake up. But he hug me and proceed to sleep. This guy really knows how to make a heart flutter. I slowly remove his hands away from me, carefully not to wake him up but that just made him cuddle onto me.
Because of his sudden action, my heart skipped a beat. It was faster than before. Xinchun, what are you doing to me? Why now, when you're leaving me behind? You can't leave me hanging, you know that.
"Xinchun" I called him. "Sleep more. It's still early" he said. I just give up. I looked at the sleeping figure beside me, adoring his whole face. I sighed. After this week, we might not see each other again. It'll be a long time before we see each other again once you become a trainee. But I'm really happy for you. Your dream can come true while my dream can't even come true.
Soon, we'll see you all over the internet, probably every person in China might recognize you once you're outside. I'll miss this kind of 'us'. Because once you're an idol, your fans might think of us that we're 'dating' each other. I don't want your "future reputation" get ruined because of me.
"Y/n, you're thinking deeply. Are you alright?" A worried Xinchun asked. So he's awake now? "Yeah I'm fine" but I'm not Xinchun. How can you expect me to be fine if you're going away? For a long time, perhaps.
"You're not fine y/n. I can read your expressions. Is it because of me.... becoming a trainee at YueHua?" He cupped my cheeks for me to look at him. "I can turn down their offer for you"
"Dont do such things without thinking it. If you turn down their offer you cannot become an idol anymore. Just do it Xinchun." It's hard for me to say those words because I know I'm sacrificing something between us. And that something is our time. But instead of being sad, I just smiled at you and said everything will be fine.
"I'll debut for you" he grabbed my hand and intertwined them. Intertwining isn't even a big deal for the both of us whenever we do it. But why do I feel butterflies in my stomach right now? Not now please. And he kissed my knuckle. We do this everytime. Doing couple stuffs even though we're not a couple.
"Let's eat?" I asked as I sense my stomach growling for food. He noded and guide me downstairs. It's my house but why does he need to guide me? "Pancakes?" He nod at the question. As I prepare the ingredients he suddenly back hug me. Kissing the top of my head he said: "I'll miss you. I need to go at YueHua next week and live in the dorm with the other trainees"
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Dear Xinchun,
Hello!! After you read this you might not be able to see me again. I'm not going away or something but it's you who is. Remember that I will always Love you Xinchun. You will always be my bestfriend whether you're with me or not. I will always remember the moments we had with each other. You will never leave my mind and heart. It's hard to let go but it's for you so it's fine by me. Don't overwork yourself and remember to take a break. And I know it's a crap to confess using a letter but I don't know how to say it to you personally. What I'm trying to say is that Xinchun, I love you not as a bestfriend but as a partner. We are with each other through bad and good times that made me realise how special you are to me. The moment you had told me that you passed the audition I was stunned. Atleast your dreams were able to come true unlike mine who is still holding on the thought about us being together. Just continue to pursue your dreams. And one day I might be able to pursue mine but without you. Bye Huang Xinchun. I love you and you know that.
~Your bestfriend/secret admirer,
Y/n
'If you just knew that I am also inlove with you'
