Starting a new story

~Chapter 17~

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Five days later (two days before party)

~Matt's POV~

"Matt stop standing there and help me!" Britt is standing on her pink penny board that she has no idea how to ride.

"Just hold onto my shoulders for balance and I will pull you." I feel both of her hands grab onto my shoulders and I continue walking.

I'm glad that me and Britt are hanging out again. Even though we are still 'taking a break.'

The whole crew stops at a shop to get ice cream but me and Britt decide to keep riding. "You know. You told me we are taking a break but we aren't broken up. So basically we're dating." I pucker my lips.

She laughs at me. "I still don't like you."

"Well duh because you love me of course."

"Matt on a serious note, now that we are talking and nobody is around, what you did was really bad."

I pull her over to a bench and we both sit down. "I don't know what rushed over me. I was so jealous of Taylor stealing my girl. I just wanted you to be all mine. I didn't want to share."

She sits there silently. "Brittney."

"Yes Matthew?"

"Why didn't you want to uh you know...have sex with me? I thought you loved me."

"Let me put it this way. You know every little thing about me. My hopes, fears, desires. You know about things that nobody else does." She takes a deep breath and looks me in the eyes. "Matt. It's easy to take off all your clothes and have sex. People do it all the time. But opening up your soul to someone? Letting them into your spirit, thoughts, fears, future, hopes, dreams..now that's true love. That's being naked."

"That's..deep." I have no clue how to respond and that's all that can come to my mind.

"Knowing that you help me and guide me through my struggles is enough. You don't have to have sex with me to prove that you love me Matt. I have always known." She looks at the pier and I look down at her hands. It would feel a lot better if I was holding them.

I grab one of her hands and she flinches as I move her bracelets. "What's wrong?"

"Uh I uh just am not ready for that again because uh we are taking a break remember." She looks away from me.

"We don't have to be dating to hold hands Britt." I chuckle.

She shyly grabs her elbow with her right hand. "Wait a second. Brittney show me your wrist." I think I know what she is hiding.

"Matt I-"

"Now Britney." I hold out my hand.

She places her wrist on my hand facing downwards. I flip it over and move her bracelets up revealing a few fresh scars.

I stand up and start to sit down again but decide to stay standing. "Britt what the..why would...you said..."I start tearing up. Her longboard is sitting at the other end of the bench so I walk over and sit on it. I helped her stop cutting and I hurt her so bad that she started again. All because of me.

"Matt. The real story-" She starts but I cut her off.

"This is because of me. I did this. Pushed you over the limit and I-" My fists tighten up.

"Matt. There is something you don't know about me. I have been depressed for a long time. I have been broken into pieces and you are the glue that holds me together. As soon as you came into my life everything changed. You help me more than you hurt me and you made a mistake. Mistakes happen." She flashes a fake smile.