A/N
ok. this us gonna be short and intense. sorry guys, I have had such a migraine all day. im only up to post this. chappie song:
rain. just the sound of rain.
Troye POV
We were leaving the main stage when it happened. He put his hand on the small of my back and the fans went insane. again. they started screaming and chanting a mixture of our names. I think they were saying royler which was lame but whatever. no, wait. They were saying Troyler! that's cute! We basically had to fight our way past the crowd to get out of the hall.
When we did, I saw my dad smiling brightly. I smiled hugely in return, then looked to Tyler to make sure he knew what was happening. he did, of course and nugded me in that direction. I shook my head violently. way too many people. I immediately turned back
around and stumbled behind him. there was no way I was going through all those people alone. Nope. Not happening.
"Troye" he growled. "we talked about this" oops. I hadn't spoken my fears about it out loud.
"Tyler, that's way to many people." I whispered leaning in towards his ear. my words were shaky and he recognized this.
He used one hand to pull me forward then kept me at his side.
"No one is gonna touch you." he said firmly; and I knew he meant it. it wasnt but a 40 second walk to the clear space where my dad was. I realized we were in the clear and bolted off. I could hear Tyler's grunt of disapproval but oh well. All too soon I was wrapped up in his strong arms.
"I was so scared when you guys weren't there this morning" he told me.
And right away, shame washed over me. I could feel tears well up in my eyes at the thought that I had managed to scare him again.
"I'm sorry" I said with a thick voice. he pulled back right away and took my fave in his hands before tilting my face up. he saw the guilt and sorrow and pulled me back to him.
"I was very scared. was being the operative word. when I saw the note, I knew you were safe. that's why I came here." he told me. just then I felt a hand rubbing small circles on the small of my back again.
Tyler.
I let go of my dad and leaned against Tyler, my dads eyes flickered between us and I was thankful. it meant he understood things. he gently nudged my shoulder with his own and smiled softly.
"Come on. Has he eaten? " he asked Tyler.
"Yeah, three course breakfast. All of it." Tyler said proudly. I couldn't help the small bit of pride that swelled up in my chest at his words. I chanced a look at my father and he was beaming brightly at me.
"See?! Now we're talking!" he said happily before scooping me up. He lifted me right of my feet and spun around before he set me back down.
"Who knows, maybe soon I won't be able to do that anymore!" he said with excitement colouring his voice.
Gain. Weight. I didnt want to gain weight.
But I didnt want them to know that so simply smiled. Tyler caught on though. He quirked an eyebrow at me and I looked away. Oh God. He knew. my dad though, bless him, had no clue. so he happily took me by the shoulder and led us to a cafe for lunch. I didnt have an appetite at all. but I would force it down anyway.
*back at the hotel room after lunch*
The more the food sat in my stomach, the worse I felt. I had Tyler and my dad in the same room, and I was nervous. I wanted it out. now. they were talking to each other when I decided to make my move. I quietly got up and started for the bathroom. but the words that were said next stopped me dead in my tracks
"Don't. Even. Think. About it." Tyler's strong voice rang out. it was full of authority, and I stopped moving.
"Sit." he commanded. I really didn't want to. I glanced up and saw his stern features were trained on me. my dad sat with a confused look on his face.
"Troye. sit down." he said again. this time, I did. I didnt understand why, because I didnt want to. But I did anyway.
"Troye, why don't you tell your dad where you were going to go?" Tyler asked. I could hear slight dissatisfaction colouring his words. he was... punishing me.
"The bathroom" I murmured guilty. I couldn't even face them.
"And why were you going there. And tell the truth" Tyler demanded. I curled up in shame. But just as quickly as shame announced itself, it was gone. Anger taking its place.
"Because im fat" I spat the words bitterly. my dad lurched up in shock. Tyler looked livid. And before I could even think of a reaction, he had me.
I was pushed up into a standing position and ripped from the room. suddenly I was turned around and was forced to look in a mirror. my dads face came into view
Without much warning my shirt was ripped off and wanted to scream. I couldnt look at that nasty beast. I tried to turn away but Tyler's hands caught me and turned me back to face mirror.
"Tyler!" I yelled out still trying to get out of my current situation.
"No Troye! Your going to look! Look at yourself!" he screamed out. holding me firmly in place. I turned my head and slammed my eyes shut. suddenly I was pressed against him and I heard his voice right next to my ear.
"open your eyes" he said with his voice low and husky. I had no control over the shiver that ran down my spine, nor the pitiful small whine that escaped my throat. I slowly opened my eyes. But I didnt turn my head. my sight was locked on my dad, who looked sick.
"Now look." he commanded. I did. And then first thing I zoned inner my stomach, which appeared bloated and disgusting. I immediately broke down and was shaking with horror at the sight before me. Tyler moved his arms so that his hands where the only thing on me.
"Look" he told me again. and this time i did by not at my stomach. my gaze zeroed in on the pale scar that was on the inside of my arm. i moved my hand and traced the letters of it lightly.
Alone.
I was always alone. Until now. just then Tyler turned me around so my face was buried in his chest. and I felt his hands light rubbing patterns on my back, tears streamed silently down my cheeks.
"You are not ugly. You are not fat. You are not alone." he said firmly. he let me go before lifting the arm that held the scar. And then to my surprise, he kissed it lightly.
"That scar will never be reopened again" Tyler said firmly. And at that moment, I knew it would never again bleed.
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A/N
I know. stupidly short and Shit. sorry. this is part 1, part 2 comes tomorrow
