Bleuzinho

Chapter 5

The first thing that comes to my mind when I wake up that morning is : What on earth have I done yesterday!? It must have been the tiredness, or the post-match euphoria, I can't explain it otherwise. I would have never agreed to go on a date with a player I manage and less kiss a player I manage. But that was before I met Antoine. I don't know what this guy did to me but it sure is powerful cause I break all the rules I set myself since I met him. And it's not good. I can't flirt with a player, I could lose my job for that. Besides, I already know all of this will end with me falling in love with him and I will regret it. I may adore France NT's players, I know they're still football players. And you don't need a drawing, everyone know how football players are. I'm not ready for that, and I don't think I ever will.

I need to talk to someone, someone I trust enough to tell everything that has happened with Antoine, someone that will be able to help me. I quickly get dressed and get out of my room, soon facing another door.

" As? I'm not late for training, am I? " Raphaël asks as soon as he opens the door of his room.

" No don't worry, training's in 3 hours, you have plenty of time. Actually, I'd like to talk to you about something. "

" Sure hmm I get dressed and I meet you downstairs in 10, ok? "

" Fine, thanks. "

I go to the cafeteria to grab something to eat for breakfast and meet Raphaël a few minutes after.

" I took some things to eat. Let's go outside, we'll have our breakfast there. " I tell him.

We find a small place in the corner of one of the hotel's garden where we can sit and eat peacefully. 

" So tell me, what is that all about? "

" Well yesterday, after we came back from Porto Alegre, I went to the basketball field cause I couldn't sleep. And Antoine was there too cause he couldn't sleep either. And we played basketball and then talked a lot. And he asked me out for dinner. And I said yes. And when I went back to my room, he kissed me. "

" Tell me this is the end and nothing else happened! "

" This is. "

" Thank god, I thought you were going to say you slept together! "

" NOOOO, ARE YOU MAD!? "

" Well excuse me but I'm not the one who kissed a player while I'm the manager in charge of the team during the world cup! "

" Please Rapha, I need you to help me. What am I supposed to do? "

" What does you heart want? What do you think about all this? "

" My heart likes Antoine very much. I loved being with him last night, I felt so at ease with him, I can talk about anything with him. I mean, yeah I like him. He's a good guy. And when we kissed, it felt just right, like this was meant to happen. "

" And what does your head say? "

" My head says I'm a total fool. I could lose my job if anyone in the staff knows what happened. Besides, I know how football players are with women. I would not stand that. I feel idiot for even thinking I could like him. "

" You do like him though. And not every football players are how you describe them. And people don't have to know about it. Why don't you give it a chance? "