Don't Deserve You (Emison Fanfic)

If I lose you...

You're the reason that I'm alive, you're what I can't live without

Ali's POV

I woke up at the couch next morning. Someone had put a blanket over me. My dad had probably came home from work.

"Dad?" I called. No answer.

I got up from the couch and let the blanket fall off me. I walked to kitchen and glanced at the clock. It was 7.30.

"Dad?" I called again. Still no answer.

I walked to the fridge and opened it. Then I saw a piece of paper on the kitchen counter. I closed the fridge and took the paper to my hands.

Sweetie, I'm sorry. I came home pretty late and you had already fallen asleep. I had to go to meet someone. There's food in the fridge if you're hungry. I will probably be back before you get back from school. Be safe.

-Dad

I sighed and threw the paper to the trash can. Suddenly I felt way more cold and lonely than yesterday, if it was even possible. I went to my room. For a moment I doubted about going to school but I realized that if I wouldn't go I would be much easier target to A. And I didn't want anyone to think that I was afraid to come to school. Actually I was. Emily was there. And she was angry at me. I hated knowing that but I couldn't help it. I had screwed things up by myself.

I changed my clothes and put on my makeup. About a half an hour later I was ready and started walking to school. There was still plenty of time so there was no need to rush.

No matter how slow I walked or how far I went around I had to face the fact that I'd still end up at school. Like I said, Emily was there. Hanna was there. All the girls were there. And I had to face them. I couldn't avoid talking to them forever. And I really had to talk to Hanna. I knew that she didn't want to talk to me but I had to. I hadn't apologized her properly yet. Like I hadn't apologized any of them. But I knew that Hanna was the hardest one to convince that I had changed. I have to talk to her, I thought. And I have to do it today.

When I got to the school there was only few minutes till my first class would start. I sighed in relief. I thought that I would get to the class without facing the girls. Well, I thought wrong...

"Ali! Wait!"

Someone called my name from behind me. I recognized the voice. I turned around and saw Spencer running towards me.

"Hey, Spence", I said when she got to me. We started walking together to school.

"So, how're you holding up?" she asked glancing at me.

"Decent", I replied trying not to laugh. Decent? I was like in an on-earth hell.

"What's wrong?" Spencer asked worried.

"What's not? A is back in game, the police is breathing on my neck and you guys hate me. I can't find any positive about that."

"We don't hate you, Ali. We just want you to be honest with us. That's the least thing you can do."